aetherverse

I rp for a long time already. And something I enjoyed about rp was to meet new people and characters online. Exchanging lore tidbits, talk about things we enjoy and just have fun writing our blorbos together. But I am faced with multiple problems lately. Some more recent, others lingering around for a while already. Writing this post isn't easy to me and fills me with dread, but I have to get this over with.

I am burned out. I run into writer's block after writer's block. Whenever I break out of one, I hit a roadblock again soon after. I try to motivate myself again, I try out different things every time, but the spark is just not really here anymore, no matter what I try.

Like a dog, I chase after that joy I used to feel for this hobby, but I can't seem to catch it anymore. Not fully, anyway. I have days where I write dozens of replies again effortlessly, where I feel happy and proud about that, but one week later that joy falters again. I try to cling onto this hobby desperately because I'm afraid of just leaving.

I don't really have friends where I live, to be honest. All the ppl on my discord, I met through rp. So I always have had that sense of dread of losing my few online friends if I quit rp for good. I still do, tbh.

But lately, I struggle more with my mental healt and my mood swings. It never got better, only worse. I don't want ppl to feel like they have to walk on eggshells when talking to me, and I don't want to feel anxious all the damn time of alienating another friend with my moods.

So, where is the point of still sticking around in this space? Taking breaks never really did much for me either and I am not up to date anymore with my dash, at all. Keeping up with mutuals and being a good rp partner is a commitment I can't get behind anymore. I am no longer able of being a good partner, I'm just tired, lonely and grumpy all the time, 24/7. Unironically, I'm fucking Squidward from Spongebob at this point. Bitter, disappointed, always complaining over shit.

I am not sure where to go from here. I mean, we can still keep in touch on discord if you want and don't mind me being absolute dogshit about holding conversations and just dipping out when I'm not sure what to reply anymore. I just dunno how to socialize properly without that fear of messing it up eventually somehow.

Aside of my discord... I will still maintain my art blog, @sabyart . I am not very active over there at the moment, but I'll try to draw a little more again. Other than that, tho? I dunno. Maybe I'll make a blog where I talk about books I'm reading, shows I'm watching and games I play. I'll share the link on my art blog, once I do. And that's it, I guess.

I won't return to rp, I at least don't think so. I need to stop clinging onto a hobby that fizzled out on me months or even years ago already. Even if I have days where I miss it, which I know I will, even if I want that old joy back, I know it won't last for long and I don't want to string partners along while being absolute shit all around.

Maybe I see you around on discord, or on my art blog. If not, that's okay too.

‘Cause sometimes the stories of how OCs come to be are just as interesting as the OCs, themselves. Tell me how your virtual kids came into the world.

What was the first element of your OC that you remember considering (name, appearance, backstory, etc.)? 

Did you design them with any other characters/OCs from their universe in mind? 

How did you choose their name? 

In developing their backstory, what elements of the world they live in played the most influential parts? 

Is there any significance behind their hair color? 

Is there any significance behind their eye color? 

Is there any significance behind their height? 

What (if anything) do you relate to within their character/story? 

Are they based off of you, in some way? 

If they have an LI, how much of their character is tailored to be compatible to that person? 

Did you know what the OC’s sexuality would be at the time of their creation? 

What have you found to be most difficult about creating art for your OC (any form of art: writing, drawing, edits, etc.)? 

How far past the canon events that take place in their world have you extended their story, if at all? 

If you had to narrow it down to 2 things that you MUST keep in mind while working with your OC, what would those things be? 

What is something about your OC can make you laugh? 

What is something about your OC can make you cry? 

Is there some element you regret adding to your OC or their story? 

What is the most recent thing you’ve discovered about your OC? 

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One Year of Aetherpotions! And still running. Maybe not the most active blog, but I was very consistent otherwise the past months. I'm pretty happy with my OC's and their constantly growing world. There goes to hopefully many more years! ^^ (unshaded version under the cut)