there's always a bigger fish.

And I clutch the little warm tubes of blood and feel this sick person warming my hands and I think about how kind you might be and how I wish I could hold your hand and how badly, how really really badly, I want you to get better and stay warm and hold someone’s hand again.

And anyway sometimes it’s better to not think so vividly about the people I’m doing tests for. I’m a good little cog in a vast machine of people all trying to heal and cure, and my cog feels so fucking small sometimes. But I hope the blood I prepare for you helps you breathe better and laugh and wake up feeling well rested.

which is problematic, sure, buuuuuuut when he breaks your heart a few weeks later, oikawa and iwaizumi don’t hesitate to offer their help getting revenge. they don’t think twice about sandwiching you between them, hands roaming over your lingerie-clad body while one of their phones snaps pictures that you can send to your now ex-boyfriend later

unicorn mike. stay with me now.

omens and cycles

Whoops.

Cross my heart, I didn't plan to go on an extended hiatus, but here we are like...MONTHS later since I last posted and EVEN LONGER since I've read or written any fic.

What the hell happened? Just run of the mill life stuff. A home renovation, some health issues that have pretty much been resolved, mixed with exhaustion and no desire to make or consume any media.

(I'm woefully behind on so much Pedro stuff - TLOU S2, Fantastic 4, The Materialists, the list goes on...)

But! The light of day is finally falling on me again and I'm feeling the familiar itch of creativity coming back to the surface. I'm a bit out of practice so I'm not going to promise big updates on current projects (though I WANT TO THE IDEAS ARE EATING ME ALIVE) but I want to do some fun small things to ease myself back into Tumblr life.

To start, I want to do a bit of a Rec-a-thon to jump back into reading and reblogging! My TBR list was getting daunting so I've made a clean slate and want to know what YOU lovely readers and writers have been enjoying. I'll put a little post out when the Rec-a-thon will begin but I'm excited to see what new (or old! or worth a reread!) fics are out there.

I also have a fun little poll game I'd like to try with some of my headcanons that aren't full fic material but are insistent enough that I'd like to put them out there in some capacity. More on that to come when I get the format sorted.

Then...I'm thinking about...another Bangathon...stay tuned for what that may entail...

Behind and around all that I'm working on updates to my longform fics, including:

I Think of You

SW!Frankie

Best Laid Plans

Westworld and Whiskey Epilogue

Plus a few fun asks that won't leave me alone like:

Incubus!Dieter on the Red Carpet

They Were Roommates!Frankie

I know this is quite an infodump after such a long time away, so thanks for sticking around for the updates and being here for me when I'm in the right headspace to contribute to this community. I've been missing it even when I had no energy to be part of it. I can't wait to really get moving on these fics I love so much and to share them with you.

some bravebyers, wisewheeler and cleradin for the soul 💖✨