𝙤𝙝 𝙢𝙮, 𝙗𝙖𝙗𝙮 !

hi, i'm taking a break from my blogs. i don't think indie rp is a good place for me mentally at the moment. i think i crave the sense of community more than the writing, which is clear from the amount of ic vs ooc i post and i feel i just take up space on the dash by spamming ooc. i'm just a very very lonely person since i was hit with a rapid fire of family tragedy in my life where now i'm completely alone irl so i get overly emotionally invested in things. specific stuff makes my anxiety shoot through the roof in a way that's not healthy, and my c-ptsd reads some things as hostile and personal when they aren't. i constantly feel like i'm too much or not enough and it's getting to me. tldr; i don't think i have anything to offer to anyone. i still love the movie and i love my muses and the friends i've made here (thank you for giving me a chance), which makes this difficult but i don't know what else to do. mutuals can dm for discord if you want to be in touch during my break.

i feel the absolute worst today what the hell

baby is crazy protective about anyone he accidentally starts caring about. he's just very violent with it. someone wronged a person he likes? he'll hit their head into the pavement or brick wall until there's blood everywhere, all while smiling sweetly and going "go on now be a big boy and apologize".

every day i wake up and think i could write gwi-ma and make it the worst thing on earth

i need infinite amount of content of baby being exposed to bizarre human world things because he's never seen any of this before

me against the world (myself tagging headcanon posts as ooc so i'll never find them again in the middle of all the crap i post in that tag)

i love making baby very oblivious BUT only with a handful of extremely specific things. one of them is huntr/x takedown song. he listens to it on a loop like 'this is so good how unfortunate' and then the meaning clicks suddenly while he's in the middle of shredding cabbage for kimchi like 'wait what the fuck'.

baby is your "they asked for no pickles" guy