ادھورا

hi, I'm back. Kind of.

If I could live my life all over again I would just to be a better partner to the man whose been nothing but great to me dispite all the bullshit and drama my family has caused.

Trying to council my friend through her pre-midterm melt down while I am also stressssssed.

I can't help but feel like my mother and I have got such a strong connection. I just got off the phone with her, she gave me the rundown on her stressful Saturday and while she was telling me about it I was shaken at how much it aligned with my Saturday. I just got so upset and couldn't figure out why I was trippin all day. Now I know, next time I'm feelin moody for no reason that means I need to call my mom.

Ever since I deleted my IG I've had to come face to face with how often I want to just open the app and kill time. I've got a lot of work to do if I really wanna uncondition myself.

Listening to Tommy Guerrero and the crickets outside,

"Is this okay?"

Sunday morning was chill, I made some coffee and went on a walk while having some really meaningful conversations with Shannon, I truly appreciate the people who bring this kind of light out of me. My mother told me on the phone today that friends who are there to lend you guidance to peace are not only good for this life but also for your life after death, that’s irreplaceable. 

In all of the spaces I’m a part of, being a student, a worker, and living in the NOVA metropolis, I just see so many people get washed out by internet culture. People are too plugged in. I think its a dangerous culture to be a part of, because it makes picking away at your own thoughts an uncomfortable experience if it’s not fitting in with some popular narrative surrounding the subject (probably something on twitter).