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The reason I am going public with this is twofold:

A) To protect others from being hurt. He is known to reach out to many tumblr users, especially young women in the Cillian Murphy fandom -- but he may have a wider reach beyond this circle. B) Since his "disappearance" three weeks ago and the unravelling of his lies, this man has ruined my life and the only hope I had of obtaining treatment for a condition that has been plaguing me for four years.

Killian Vidal is the name he has chosen to give us, and has claimed to be both a officer commander and general in the mobility troop in the SAS (the general rank does not even exist), has beaten cancer a while ago (but said to another mutual that his "time was running out" and he is currently struggling with it), and a plethora of other life experiences and general knowledge about him that varies in consistency when talking to different people and is questionable in its validity. He has also shared pictures of "himself" that when reverse image searched, belong to different people.

I got to know Kill when he reblogged one of my fanfics (as the story seems to start with a lot of his victims) and he reached out via DMs. We quickly became close friends who called nearly every day on Discord and when I told him about my health issues, he immediately offered to pay for my medical treatment wherever I could find willing doctors.

I was hesitant to believe this at first since all of this seemed too good to be true (and was). He claimed to be very wealthy, enough to afford private jets like it was nothing and to rent me an apartment in the UK in the same building as him. Over time, I grew to trust him because he felt like such a genuine person and friend, which was made all the more believable by the fact that he has such a huge following on Tumblr and was, at the time, part of a vast social network of fans and friends (one of which he even claimed to know IRL -- who will remain anonymous unless they decide to speak out). I decided to ignore the little red flags because I was so desperate to receive this treatment that for me would be life-saving.

For four years, I have been plagued by an array of (mostly) undiagnosed digestive issues that have made my life almost unbearable and have on numerous occasions nearly killed me due to malnutrition. I've spent months in hospital, endured years of malpractice and misdiagnoses, undergone heart surgery, and have tried absolutely everything I can to get better. In the winter of 2023, I was told by my doctor that I was refused in the TPN program (a treatment that may have slowed or stopped my weight loss) and that with or without it, I was looking at mortality. Refusing to stop fighting but having exhausted the public health care system in Canada, I went into 2024 not really having much hope of anything anymore.

So, when Kill came along, that changed. He promised -- and I mean, from the bottom of his heart, promised -- that he would help me get treatment, that he would get me out of my abusive home and fly me to the UK, that he would be there for me as my friend, etc. I was beyond grateful, and as my trust with him built, so did my hope.

The travel plans kept getting put off; originally, he would fly me out as soon as the apartment became available, which was the 11th of Feb, 2024. He kept finding excuses to not book the jet. Finally, it seemed as if around the 15th/16th I would be flying. My health had been declining rapidly and the situation was becoming all the more urgent, and he said he was in contact with a pilot and would send the ticket soon and call me.

That was the last I heard from him. The 16th.

Initially thinking he had ended his life (he had discussed thoughts of suicide with me prior to this), I was beside myself with worry not only thinking one of my closest friends was gone but also that my chance at life was. I reached out to his other friends, and I made several calls to the UK authorities and emergency services and ended up requesting a welfare check be made to see if he was even alive.

They reported that no one under the name Killian Vidal was in the records of the building name he gave me -- the same building that I was meant to live in within that week.

After reaching out to my now beloved friend @kittenonpluto (A.K.A., Cas) on Tumblr, I learned that Kill was in fact alive, and had told her that he was in hospital for digestive issues in Indianopolis, United States (though again, no record of his name in their medical system). He still wouldn't talk to me, but told her to tell me that he would reach out when he was out of hospital.

Cas and I compared information he'd told us (her story will be attached to this post) and looked into the mystery more. He constantly dodged confrontation and questions about the fake photos and information he'd sent her, and seemed to use his completely fabricated hospitalisation as an excuse to not fulfil his promises to myself and her, as well as a means to garner sympathy.

It was quite obvious that he didn't know how the American medical system worked, and he even incorporated elements of my actual story and used them in his. When asked about his treatments, he responded with medically false information. He reported digestive issues, reflux, and having both an NG tube and TPN -- both of which I have experience with -- and let me say, I am beyond disgusted and infuriated that my real life trauma was used as a ploy in all this.

How do we know for a fact this is false? I checked the police case for his welfare check again, and they said that they confirmed him being in the UK at the same time he had told Cas he was in hospital in the States.

After a final confrontation from both Cas and myself (and a desperate final plea for the medical aid he promised me), he was never heard from again from either of us or our friend circles.

I'm now having to pick up the pieces he's left me in and to be honest, I have little to no idea of what the hell to do or how to save myself. The fact that he strung me along for a month and built up my hope that I was going to live only to abandon me without even a word is deplorable to me.

And mine isn't the only story. I've heard from four women on Tumblr (who, again, will remain anonymous unless they choose to speak out) who he has been romantic or sexually involved with (and lied about his involvement, made them out to seem insane or toxic, created rifts in our friendships, toyed with their emotions, and made false promises to of relationships, marriage, and finances).

And that's not including the ex-wife who came back to Tumblr to claim that her and Kill had never met nor married. She was promptly silenced by a "lawyer threat" that we have strong reason to believe was a bluff.

At the end of the day, there are so many lies, half-truths, inconsistencies, etc. this man has wrapped himself in and we don't know for the life of us what his motives are, but from the information that we do know is false, he isn't genuine. He toys with people. He hurts them. Myself and the others that have been affected by this want that to stop.

And at any point, he has the ability to make a new account, and take on a new persona, pretend to be someone else. Tumblr is a wonderful place and I have met so many cool people on here, but please be careful about who you interact with and what you share, because aside from making this post, it is beyond my power to stop him from doing what he does. But after what he did to me, I could not remain silent.

Other Stories

If you have an experience or story with Killian that you would like heard, please reblog it on this thread or make a post. With your consent, I can include a link to it below.

Final Note

Lastly, if you have read this far, thank you.

If you want to reach out to me about this issue -- whether it's to anonymously share your experience, ask questions, ask for evidence (of which I can back up these statements with), or anything at all --, please do not hesitate to do so. <3

For those who may be worried about the potential legality of this post, everything that I have stated as fact is fact and it is not my intention to slander or spread false information.

He and I started talking January 28th. We hit it off quickly and started talking on the phone the same day for over an hour. He was charming, kind, friendly, and flirty.

I had no reason to doubt him and his words. He was a well known person in the Peaky Blinders and Cillian fanfic community. There was another tumblr user who said she was his wife/ex wife and, perhaps unintentionally, she gave validity to his lies. I spoke to him on the phone many times having organic conversations.

I had never heard of a catfish doing that and he never once asked me for money.

Red mentioned his "ex wife" coming back to tumblr to say that she and Killian were never married. This all happened in a private message that the other user shared to Killian. Killian then shared it to me and I was shocked. I believed Killian. After all, she said at the end that she was lying about most everything she had just said and I couldn't fathom why she would claim to be his real life wife on tumblr if she never even met him. (I still have so many unanswered questions about this).

On February 17th, he was supposed to fly to the US to see me and for business. On February 16th & 17th, everything changed. He had been intimating at having stomach issues for a week or so. The morning of the 17th in his time zone, he said he had gone to the doctor and was given IV fluids. I was extremely worried about him and his condition. I called the local hospital in the UK and he was not admitted there. That evening he texted me that he had come to Indy and was in the hospital there. His text seemed rushed and had misspellings. I spent my entire lunch break at work frantically calling all the hospitals in Indianapolis to hopefully find out his condition. It seemed dire. None of the hospitals had a Killian Vidal in their system.

When I got home that night, I had what his "ex wife" had written in my mind. It was too coincidental that his major health issue happened the day he was supposed to see me. I took images that he had sent and reverse image searched them. Multiple of them came from the internet from as far back as 2014 and were definitely not him. I was devastated.

I reached out to @aurorag98 the next day as I knew she had been hurt in some way by Killian. She will tell her story as well on this post. Aurora has become a wonderful friend of mine (as well as Red - though Red and I didn't talk til later on). I sincerely would not have been able to process any of this without Aurora or Red.

Because of pursuing a relationship with Killian, I am losing so many things including my dog (who I consider to be my son), my home, my career progress (I had to drop out of college because I could no longer afford to live in the same area), quite a lot of money (from dropping my course), and the man who I genuinely thought to be the love of my life.

We were planning to get married after I moved to the UK with him. We had names for our future children picked out. We shared baby pictures, funny stories, and our inner thoughts. He told me that I meant the world to him.

I never really gave much thought to the idea of soulmates until I connected with him. He could have been broke and looked nothing like the buff profile pic he used to use on here, and I would have loved him to pieces all the same.

I wish I had answers as to who he is and why he has done the evil things he has done. I pleaded with him for honesty. I desperately wanted to believe that the lies were just to cover an insecurity and he couldn't have wanted to actually hurt me and others. I no longer think that. I have tried to understand, but all I have are theories.

What I do know is that he hurt me deeply in a way that I don't think I will ever forget and that will take me a very long time to recover from.

During all that time we interacted through comments on our fics and little DMs.

I remember very well that he wished me Merry Christmas on Christmas Eve.

The story he created here is that he was married and even wrote fics with his wife so that made me feel safe, he became a good mutual/friend and part of my constant interaction in the Tumblr community.

In the second week of January 2024 my mother became very ill and needed donors because her blood type is O Negative and therefore hard to get, he had messaged me to see how I was doing and when I told him everything that was going on with my mother and the situation she was in, he without hesitation offered to donate.

He told me that he was O Negative and that he understood why my mother's situation was so difficult as 7 years ago he had had cancer and that his blood type had been a problem, he told me that he could come to my country as every 2 to 3 weeks he traveled from the UK to Indianapolis on business.

At the time I thought he was married, but he told me that his wife cheated on him and had returned to the UK, so he was divorced. I declined his offer, but was very grateful. His offer as well as his words meant a lot to me, I was almost a stranger to him despite our interactions and the simple fact that he volunteered to donate blood to my mother meant everything to me.

A week later he contacted me again, and that's when my hell began.

It was all constant manipulation in a cruel and vile way, he made me believe that I wanted to do this, he also made me feel guilty and question my judgment.

In the end when I realized what he was doing (talking to other girls sexually besides me) he made me feel like I was crazy and that I had distrusted him for no reason.

He finally burned me, he said that I stalked and harassed him, that it was all one sided and that I had sexualized everything, that he had never been interested in me when he started all this.

He said very hurtful things about me that still hurt me to this day because it meant so much to me.

I don't know how many people think I'm a crazy stalker because he told them I did that, plus he shared screenshots of my messages without bothering to hide my name and profile picture (I have a very particular name).

I had to completely get out of the Cillian Murphy fandom and stop writing because I also received anonymous attacks I guess from some of his followers that he had told all those lies about me.

All this has been very hard, I don't even know how I managed to cope, I felt very lonely, I blamed myself, I couldn't eat or sleep, I had anxiety and depression, and to this day I can't write and the things that made me happy don't make sense anymore.

He hurt a lot of girls and I still don't understand why he did it, he is just not a normal catfish. I don't think we will ever know his motivations and that doubt will haunt me forever.

Thanks to Cas (@kittenonpluto ) who contacted me almost a month later I found out that Killian Vidal was a catfish, I only had the idea that he was a womanizer predator of young girls, she was a support in this process, being able to share our experiences, all the lies he told us as well as our feelings brought me closer to giving closure to this point in my life that I couldn't talk to anyone about without feeling like a fool and feeling guilty, but that's just what he wanted to make me feel, guilty and scared by his empty threats and attacks.

He didn't make it, we are here telling the truth and hoping no one else has to go through something like this.