And of course, as if it could have been well and truly predicted, conversation swung to her sister. Something that Hudson had no doubt in his mind Addison had avoided for the better part of her absence from all of their lives. If he were a betting man; he might have concluded that sheâd done little else other than ignore it all, in the hopes that sheâd move on. Even if that found her stuck in this spot, right here and now clinging to the image that so many had burned into their mind as the turning point in such a silent war. âYouâd be sacrificing one pain for another.â It didnât matter how many times he had to say it â heâd say it at every given chance before they moved forward, to offer an out if she could even blink away the idea as a terrible option to look to. âMaybe you canât live like this, but my fixing it, might force you to live in a way you hate even more than this and I canât have you coming out the other end fucking resenting me for anything else.â Not beyond the heartache heâd already caused her, even if itâd all been for the best.Â
âIf you could ask anyone else, Iâd like to think you still wouldnât.â Beyond the few people he knew dabbled in dark magic within the city reach, he couldnât think of anyone as well practiced and powerful as he was. Not such an egotistical brag, however, a mere thought that preserved the idea of it actually working. Her best likelihood lay with him, and he knew that long before theyâd found their way here. No matter how deeply Hudson fully believed that a year was far too long for anyone to try chasing the pieces of themselves theyâd lost, he knew that Addison was as foolhardy as most; never quite one to let sleeping dogs lie. âYour desperation is whatâs gonna kill you, Addy.â Especially for this â- for wanting this to become such a permanent piece of her life. âBut fine.. Itâs not like Iâve got anything to lose, right?â
Addison chewed on her lesser lip, mulling over his words. One pain for another. âBut itâd be my choice.â She linked her fingers together, stretching them palms outward, âmy sacrifice. Not one that I had no say in.â Not something she woke up to. Her parents had done what they could in the moment, and she couldnât fault them for that. Theyâd just lost a daughter. Theyâd almost lost her. âI wouldnât hate you,â she said quickly, shaking her head as she looked over at him, sincerity in every word, âyouâd have given me a choice, Hudson. Thatâs not something I had before. Whatever happens...youâd have given me that.â Theyâd been through a lot together, good and bad, and while Addison wouldnât forget the pain that had hit when heâd left, sheâd learned to forgive. If anything, sheâd learned to look at it for what it wasâ an opportunity to start again. Heâd given her that too, however abrupt and painful it had been at the timeââ Hudson had given her a new start, whether or not that had actually been his intention several years ago when heâd disappeared.Â
âIâd wish I could, though.â Because she knew she was asking too much but he was her best shot and Addison never did anything she thought was a losing battle. She was too stubborn to accept defeat, to accept what was. And Hudson could do the impossible. Beyond what he should have been practice in, he was able to do exactly what she needed: break the barriers and confines of tradition and delve deep into the unknown darkness beneath. âI wish it didnât have to be you, Hudson...I hope you know that.â She wouldnât put him in this position if sheâd had another sure way. But he was the only path she saw and it went to show how fickle fate truly was to bring them together like this. She gave a haphazard laugh, raking a hand through her hair as she nodded, âno, I guess you donât.â Maybe she did ââ but as long as she was the one putting everything on the line voluntarily....it made all the difference. It was her choice.Â