Hi I'm Cheeze

I love you anon, i love drawing again thank you so much

I hope you like him

y'know who else "comes out" as the things that they're genuinely not? radqueers.

And who helped me with that? Not people calling for some nebulous revolution. Not people telling me that the system was useless. Not people preaching at me to grow my own food. It was a church food bank partially funded by the state of Texas that some southern hippies donated a bunch of Whole Foods nonsense to.

And you know what? I’m sick and tired of defeatism. What can we get done right now, huh? Are you gonna accept something a bit better to help people right now or are you waiting for your perfect utopia to come to you?

I have a folder of these on my phone... I'm not sure what that says about me!

I miss drawing them

Based on this tomodachi life interaction

I casually informed my gastro about this phenomenon near the end of our next appointment because I hadn’t been informed that was something that could happen and I thought it might be important to note, possibly a sign of a deeper problem with the way my body was reacting to the medication or sometime like that. Instead of responding with ‘That happens sometimes.’ or even ‘Huh. Weird. Didn’t know it could do that.’ he turned around and looked at me and said in the most condescending and judgmental voice imaginable “Your colon is more important than your hair.”

Which is a really funny one liner out of context and if he had said it with any other expression and tone, I might have laughed. But he was so fucking serious. I was taken aback and immediately tried to explain I just thought it might be of medical relevance. Like, yes, I fucking know my colon is more important than my hair and it seemed like this man was prematurely annoyed with me and (I assume) he thought I was going to try to switch treatments for my severe ulcerative colitis because my fucking hair was falling out. Far from the cruelest thing a medical professional has ever said to me, not egregious enough to make me feel the need to comment on it or try to switch providers, just demoralizing in a way that felt like a branding. I left the appointment feeling so fucking small. I thought, oh, he thinks I’m stupid and vain. This doctor, who has seen me at my most vulnerable and heard me have to describe shitting blood so much I needed iron infusions for the anemia, this man who has shoved a camera up my ass on multiple occasions thinks I am a vapid dumbass who would value my hair over not being in fucking pain and incontinent and sick and bleeding.

"this is how we've always done it"

"that's the policy"

"we've never tried that before"

Guys.. I jorked it and became a system because I was so lonely and can't get bitches 🥺 /sarc

people with severe childhood trauma are less likely to have access to the means and stability required to maintain system resources for a wider community. how can you maintain an alter-tracking app or run a support group when your priorities are escaping abuse, stabilizing your life, coping with trauma, etc? especially when trauma survivors are more likely to be in poverty. a system that formed without trauma exists at a point of privilege, as they are generally less likely to be in an ongoing stressful situation that would prohibit maintaining these resources. anyone who brags of how "pro endos are running the most prolific system/plural supports so its pointless to be anti endo" is effectively bragging about how endogenics are better than ppl with cdds because they lack trauma.