Years it became a nightmare to see chin and upper lip hair grown. I was 16 and my life shattered. My dad’s genes started to pick up. I was taking hormones on and off behind my parents back so whenever I went weeks without hormones hair would grow in dramatically and I’ll would shave, nair, pluck and wax. I noticed shaving caused me huge texture acne problems, not only because of puberty but because I was on and off of hormones. I didn’t realize this until I noticed how people would treat me now that my skin was bumpy everywhere. I decided to find a solution by talking to my doctor about prescribing a topical cream to put on the affected area of my face. It was my whole fave from the neck on up. Once I noticed results of the texture acne disappearing I made up a strict skin care routine. My skin clearing up was not only a dream but it was becoming my reality. I started taking hormones consistently which helped, skin care was amazing. When the pandemic hit i couldn’t keep up with my strict regimen. By the looks of it my skin knew my regular activities that kept me active had completely died down. I started breaking out in certain areas which would trigger me to look back at my teen years and see folks laugh at me. I couldn’t afford to get my waxed (which to me was the only solution, it didn’t cause me to break out and my face loved it) Hrt and testosterone blockers had slowed down the growth of my hair dramatically. So the little hairs I had would be waxed away. As the pandemic became clear as day we can’t break out quarantine. Hair started to grow in and it started to trigger me. I couldn’t allow that to happen. I became obsessive yet again about the growth of this facial hair. So I started shaving again and that was biggest mistake I made. I noticed a dark shadow appeared it seemed more darker than usual. I think because of the lack of sunlight my skin was not as dark as it gets from being active in the sun. So any 5 o’clock shadow I had was more visible to me. It makes me dysphoric as hell, it makes me paranoid as fuck!! I had to go with the fact that I am a woman so I can’t have facial hair. Only a select few knew about the insecurity I have when it comes to facial hair. It’s honestly the pressure to conform which to me works for me. Not only because of choice but also I feel more comfortable and safe. Currently in 2021 I decided to go fully under treat to remove all traces of hair on my face. I think it’s time to use something more long run. I looked on Groupon and I found an amazing place and deal. It was highly recommended by another trans woman to go there. The price for laser is $446.00 at the moment. If you know Groupon you know the prices jump and down. So I decided to raise $525.00 to go towards laser treatment. Gofund me does take a few out so I want to be as cautious as possible. All funds will go towards my laser treatment and if any funds left will go towards future needs.
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