hey y’all this blog is inactive now ✌️ i’ve decided that drowning myself in negativity and disguising it as “venting” isn’t helping me recover. i want to get better and be happier, so i’m leaving this blog behind. feel free to spam my old posts, but i recommend that maybe you guys stop drowning yourself in negativity and find a better place to heal as well. good luck to you all 💕 i genuinely send you my best wishes

I AM SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF BEING ALIVE!! i’m so tired of lying and putting up a facade and existing and dealing with people and jusf. fucking. everything! i’m tired of evertthing! i am so fucking sick and tired of everything i am so fucking done. i haye everyone i fucking hate EVERYONE. everyone fucking sucks they’re all such fucking assholes who only pretend to care and i’m so fucking exhausted of dealing with them i fucking HATE THEM!! i am so tired of pretending to be kind and sweet and soft and funny i am not any of those things i’m fucking angry and i fucking hate everyone i hate my friends i hate my family i hate my classmates i hate my teachers i fucking hate everyone i swear to GOD they’re all so annoying and such vile fucking liars I HATE THEM SO FUCKING MYCH IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF DEALING WITH THEM i want to go back home and be with my real friends but i’m fucking stuck here and i hate it so fucking much i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it I HATE IT!!!!! i’m never going to go anywhere in life i can’t even fucking make it through high school i’m still fucking stuck being a freshman when i’m almost 16 i’ll never get a job i’ll never live past 18 i fucking hate existing i’m just prolonging the inevitable. i’m going to kill myself one day and i know that for a fact it’s going to happen there is no other way for my life to go. there is nothing in this world for me and i am not a good enough or strong enough person to keep letting myself live like this i fucking hate everyone and everything and i’m so FUCKING tired. i’m so numb and angry and upset and terrified and manic all at once and it fuckimg sucks and i’m so fucking ready to kill myself i can’t wait to be gone i fucking HATE BEING ALIVE AND EXISTING THE WAY I DO!!!

i’m always last choice and that’s just very fun and cool i think! :) i love being the friend you only talk to when you’re bored and no one else is online. i love being the friend you only come to when you’re upset. i love being last choice! love it. it’s so fun. i love when none of my friends genuinely love me and just use me for when they’re bored or upset

I AM SO UNBELIEVABLY TIRED OF EVERYTHING LOL CAN U GUYS HEAR ME. U WATCH EVERY FUCKING THING I DO CAN U PLEASE JUST FUCKING LISTEN TO ME. I AM SO FUCKING TIRED. CAN I WAKE UP NOW. CAN I BE DONE NOW. PLEASE. IM SO FUCKING TIRED I CANT KEEP DOING THIS. I KNOW YOU FUCKERS ARE WATCHING I FUCKING KNOW CAN YOU JUST FUCKING END THIS ALREADY I FUCKING HATE YOU