ramyeonim

but here I am, trying to write the first episode of 'she fell first' on my 26th🍀

All Day Place, Yogyakarta, Indonesia, 2026

after these matters, do not put more effort into someone. focus on yourself, everyday, is a must.

rest from loving and caring people.

recharge your energy, soul, brain, and mood.

no.

not for someone else. it's for you.

I promised to myself that I won't make people have a bad feeling of me (still, there was). I don't want to cry (still, I cried). I don't want to get mad (still, I got mad). I just want to look cheerful all the time and cheer them up when they're sad. Only bring positive vibes to them.

But, boomerang got into me.

On my 25th, I thought I couldn't be my 18th to 22nd version. I just need to enjoy my life. With whom I want to be a friend(s). Whose are people that want to be friends with me. Which person will accept me as their friend.

I can tell any jokes, random things, and my past stories to the people around me. But, I can't even share how I feel right that time. Won't ever share.

With full awareness, as someone with many shortcomings by visual, style, brain, etc., I can't expect much from every individual. If someone doesn't want to know me, just let it be, it's about right. If I want to be free without asking any "why?" in my head, yes, stop thinking about nothing.

I should accept every single thing in this world. Even if it's hard. and. hurt.....

Being a cheerful and positive person is a boomerang.

I hope I can manage my soul to stay alive, won't ever feel tired for being the true me, won't feel sick for nothing.

Last.

Dear, me.

Please make a boundary cause you are URGENTLY need it.

“Causing problems in the workplace only makes you tired. Getting a steady salary is enough.”