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These past few weeks:

My sleeping patten has been so off. So that’s why I type this at 12am.

Mommy life is something new & takes time to get adjusted to. Being a mom can bring much joy, but it can also challenge you in ways you never expected.

This is something I’ve always wanted. Those who have known me for years, know this. I knew it wouldn’t be easy, but wow. I never really thought I’d go through the emotions that may come after baby is here.. but let me tell you, the baby blues., it’s a real thing.

First 2 weeks, my emotions were crazy. Wait, first few days! Didn’t help that I was sick during labor and after. Day 2 of being home I broke down. Alone. I was happy. Excited. Scared. Anxious. Tired. Cried.. just needed to let it out. As days went by, I was good but had my moments.

I read it’s suppose to last about 2 weeks, after that it’s postpartum depression. So is that what’s going on? I don’t know.

[Please know I HAVE NOT thought about hurting myself Or the baby.. so don’t get all crazy worried. I love that boy. So much!!]

Anyway… on top of my crazy hormones bouncing off the walls, my past failed pregnancy came to mind. I, for a second, asked why?…,,Again, my crazy hormones.

I recently shared this with someone who is just an acquaintance & man did it feel good! She made herself available and I didn’t feel judged telling her this. Just one mom to another sharing.

So.. I write when I can. Write my thoughts & prayers. I decided to share.. not to get attention and sympathy, but to let others know it’s ok to talk about this. I’ll continue to write & share. It may just be for me, but who knows it might help someone else who may need to hear that they aren’t the only one.

I'm exited nervous happy to see what motherhood brings. I'm beyond thankful for this blessing!

I just had my first ob/gyn appointment today and I was told that I might have a molar pregnancy (waiting for results in the morning). I have never heard of this before and I am still in shock. Your posts are comforting to know that everything will be ok.

Test one: came out positive. Test two: came out positive. [I was given the ok to start trying in early January, but didn’t think it would happen that quick lol!] Told my husband. DID NOT get excited just yet.

In my mind, I thought well the molar pregnancy came back. So made an appointment. Had blood work, my levels were high. We still had to make sure, so we scheduled an ultrasound.

Leading up to that appointment, I was nervous. I didn’t know what to think or do. Well, day came and there I heard and saw a small strong heartbeat. Instant tears!!!!!! The ultrasound tech told me I was about 6 weeks. She congratulated me, I walked out all SMILE!! Called my husband and we both were beyond excited! Met again with my OB and talked about”whats next.” All he said was that when the baby is here, they will have to keep my placenta to test it. Looking for molar cells. 

We told our family and Waited for March to let the world know about our little miracle. We are beyond grateful for all the love and support we have had and continue to have!

NOW we are in May, and soon will find out what we are having!! I’ll also be half way there! Can not wait!!!  Thanks be to God for this blessing! Thankful that this is not a high risk pregnancy. October will be here soon and we continue to pray that God prepare us. That our baby is born healthy. That it all goes well.

So after months of waiting and wondering, I saw a doctor!! It’s been 6 months since my molar pregnancy. Doubling up on birth controls, so there will be no way on getting pregnant.

Side note: It sucked. Birth control and my body don’t mix well. I was sick a lot and made my months worse. Glad to be off of all birth controls.

Anyway, I went to see a doctor finally. He cleared me and gave me the ok to start trying again. Told me to just be careful, and as soon as I think I’m pregnant to come in so they can take blood hopefully get an ultrasound and see if it’s all good.

He did say, because I had the molar pregnancy I do have a higher chance of having another one.. Not something I want to hear, but knew already. (Hate getting reminded of that!) So, staying hopeful and trusting God through all this.

It’s great news and so happy my body is back to normal. In 6 month, my body went through SO MUCH! Being pregnant, having a D&C, losing blood, suffering with postpartum, and so much more.

I’m happy to say, I’m happy. It was tough but pulled through thanks to lots of friends, family, prayers, my husband, & MY GOD!

I’ll keep sharing my journey. It feels good to just write this all down.