on the dancing places they are dancing shining

At the end of the month I'm moving, and after the move I will have levels of medical access that I haven't seen in quite some time. I will be between four and six medications, for my HRT, ADHD, severe agoraphobia, and so on. I will also be pursuing dental work at least to the point of getting me out of pain if not yet able to comfortably eat, physiotherapy, and maybe some of psychotherapy.

Because I am a trans woman with immigration-related legal documentation issues, I have spent years being discriminated against by medical gatekeepers. This will no longer be a problem for me next month, but I am still potentially looking at a medication budget of like $100 a month without even getting into all the service stuff I need.

Due to discrimination as a transitioning teenager I was not able to finish high school and this has compounded a lot of my other life problems. Once I am housing-stable and capable of functioning in the real world (which I don't think will take more than a couple months, tbh) I'm going to be pursuing a university education.

This all sounds like it would be super expensive but fortunately I am soon to be in a country these things are not free, but not particularly expensive either, and I am not expecting intense institutional barriers other than the financial ones of having so many of these expenses adding up. But it is an expense. You understand.

$2000 will put me in a great position to do all of this while $1000 will get the ball rolling and every bit between here and there helps as well.

I will be downloading everything I purchased from Bandcamp and keeping an eye on it.

exploring some ruins

the original idea was a brother-sister pair of tomb robbers whose great. great? great. grandfather or something was some type of archaeologist and a guy who found a map hidden away after romans burned down his family home cross paths and go looking for. something.

i have paid half my rent this month (6800/14000INR) because i had to incur personal expenses such as travelling, paying my brother's sem fees, and some other things. i was able to rent a fridge because it is impossible otherwise in this stuffy room (only a ceiling fan) and food was becoming a bigger expense if i was buying stuff to cook only immediately /eat immediately. so this is where i am at

i did try to give tuitions but the location is far from my office so i can't balance both everyday + the travelling back and forth would be an extra charge (i already cant afford transportation to my work, i only have enough for two days)

andi got some work on here, and then i sold one of my vintage record covers (i dont have a record player i just had a really good old hindi film poster that somebody offered to buy)

so this is where i am at, and it is a matter of urgency. i was able to stock up on food because somebody gave me a giftcard i added that to the goal money too) so i am not worried about my cats, at least for a week or so.

i dont really like explaining my situation in complete detail because i am... well... embarrassed/ashamed and also aaaah it feels bad but yeah!!!!

any and every help literally matters a lot right now. i am willing to do ur homework, write ur assignments, or any other service i can offer (if ur in india and need help with things i can help with that too!!!!) so that is all !!!

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

also i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all.

https://aandhi.substack.com/

there is no conclusive evidence that the feminizing effects of injectable E are preferable to those of oral E, but injectable is safer long-term (years-long), so eventually switch to injectable. its cheaper also.

use a good anti-androgen. spiro will make you piss and pissed, because it sucks. take bica 50mg or cypro 12.5mg.

take your prog. take 200mg. if youre putting it in your mouth, take more until youre emotional but stable. if youre putting it in your butt - PUTT IT IN YOUR BUTT - take more, but less than you would if it were in your mouth.

work out. work your ass, your thighs, your abs. get sweaty. the more growth hormones you can get through your body, the more effectively your estrogen will feminize you (this includes your tits).

eat more. eat at least 25% more than your maintenance. eat lots of protein, but also lots of fat. your ass and tits will thank you very jiggly.

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