𝙖𝙖𝙝𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙮𝙖

It's sometimes the no’s that you need,

Sometimes the fall that you need,

It's sometimes the crawl that you need,

Sometimes the dark that you need,

लिखू उसमें बातें, मैं बेहिसाब लिखू.

कहीं तुझे आब लिखू, कहीं आस लिखू,

कहीं हकीकत, कहीं एहसास लिखू.

जब जब तेरा नूर लिखू,

तब तब तुझे चांद लिखू.

जब लिखू ग़ज़ल आशिकी की,

मैं हर मतले मैं तेरा नाम लिखू.

है दिल जिससे नशे मैं मेरा,

उन आंखों को मैं शराब लिखू.

जब कोई तुम्हें ख्वाब कहे,

मैं उसे रुसवा करूं और तुम्हें मेरा

आज लिखूं.

और उस हक़ीक़त पर एक किताब लिखू

लिखू उसमें बातें, मैं बेहिसाब लिखू.

Well, nevermind. I might not be making sense because I've not felt excitement in a very long time. Yes, excitement as in heart thumping for good. As in butterflies in my stomach. As in not eating because you're full of happiness. I've not had that in a very long time.

I do miss the excitement of result days, I always wanted to know how much I've achieved after pouring my heart into it. I do miss the excitement of visiting a new place, knowing it might be crowded by tourists who are just there to blast their feeds with aesthetically pleasing content. I miss the excitement of watching a new film because I've either seen it on people's story or known the plot by memes itself. I miss the excitement of sundays as my either family used to catch up and do little things that kept the happiness alive. I hate to admit it, but I miss the excitement of love. That weakness you feel in your back when you're first told that there's a certain someone who's interested in you, the constant heart thumping that you experience throughout the time you try and know the person and the butterflies you get when you finally come together. As a very young girl, I miss that fairy tale.

देखो, देखो ज़रा इनकी बेमानी देखो

उसने लिखने का हुनर नवाज़ दिया,

तो ये झूठ लिखने लगे

अरे इनकी औकात देखो,

मनमानी देखो,

ये ना जाने,

कितने लब चूम, मदहोश हुए

कौन पास आया, किसके पास गए।

इनसे कोई इनकी न-रवानी तो पूछो,

इनसे इनकी झूठी कहानी तो पूछो।

दुनिया की “आह”

मुझे हाय

लगवाने न जाने कितना ये रोयेंगे,

कोई पूछो इनसे, इनकी मनमानी तो पूछो।

पूछो इनसे और कितना झूठ हैं बाकी,

कोई इन्हें नए लब दो, मदहोश करो,

वापस अपनी जवानी दो लेखक हैं... एक कहानी दो,

इन्हें एक “आह” दो, और फिर इनकी झूठी कहानी तो देखो.

देखो, देखो ज़रा इनकी बेमानी देखो