Droid

Holy shit wait I can't forget when I went to the strip club before me and him were dating I mean we were just talking at the time and he made me feel so fucking horrible for going. He thought I was joking until the day came and I mentioned it again. I looked pretty cute that night a girl told me she liked my hair. But tbh I felt so predatory I seriously felt like my father. Shoot mineself. I dissociated. he claimed he got me a Valentine's gift one of this flower plush things ......never got that. I burned him so many cds wrote him a lot of letters. My bpd and ocd got so strong to the point where if I left fingerprints well more so if I left my hair skin blood anywhere that must mean I was cheating on him cuz someone could clone me. (......) I had to mask those issues as well btw because he loved bringing up how he never wants to be with someone with BPD again cuz of his ex. ._. she was hella persistent I will say even found his Gmail LMFAOAOA .....his mom tried to put this idea in his head that because I wasn't in college I must've been a whore. I mean ig he defended me so he was able to do the bare minimum on that. Oh and she was racist. YK. White women who had kids with an Asian guy racist. ._. Anyways. Craziest part that bitch looked up my familys information. Found out my dad was a pedophile and told her son he shouldn't trust me cuz I am hiding deep secrets from him. THAT SAME YEAR MY FATHER FUCKING RAN FROM THE COPS TO MEXICO. She didn't think once to herself hmmm maybe he molested his own children too. Stupid selfish cunt. Anyways they got into an argument about it she had a "heart attack" left him to go to a hotel for the night. I told my ex what she found on my dad he started to cry and feel bad for his mom. I was extremely ashamed and felt like my father was going to ruin my life forever. That led to us breaking up blah blah blah. ...I wish i was angrier at him and his mom. Because... That was fucked up :(