A Shot At A Silver Lining

There is beauty in things that have come and pass. There is beauty in things that do not last. There is no such thing as watsed time, Only lights that no longer brightly shine. Tonight i found forgotten trails, Fronze solid by natures hail. Never will i forget these years, Nor look back with regretting tears. Forever held next to my chest, Memories we have laid to rest.

https://soundcloud.com/fuel-up

I hate anxiety. I hate that people think I like saying home all the time. It's not that I want to stay home it's that the thought of leaving my bed makes me stomach sick. You feel fine until you actually have to do something,then all of a sudden your dying sick. I hate that some days it feels like this thing, a thing you can't describe controls your life.

Home made Mad Hatter hat!!

Very few things annoy me enough to make a status about it,but these "real man" posts are to fucking annoying. Imagine if i posted a picture stating all the things a girl, my girlfriend, needed to do to be a "real women" I'd be called a sexist in a matter of minutes. For a generation where most women consider them selves feminists, there is really a lack of understand of the base roots of what feminism means, the strive for equality. By making these post you are doing exactly what men get attacked for doing. making a forced stereotype of what a "real man" should me. It can still be sexist, and offense if its directed towards men, surprise.  I do not need to buy my girlfriend things or hold a door to be a real man just as a women doesn't need to dress up and put out to be a real women.. how about we move forward in a positive way..

Well this is not fun. The second picture is me a year and a half ago; the first picture is me now. Fuck i have a ways to go to get back in shape. I'm day 2 of p90X. I need to stick with it, its way harder than expected.

I loved the movie, but i cant help but feel lost at the end. I get this was the goal of ending the book/ movie this way. To allow the viewer to  really feel like the lost someone. I cant seem to get the movie out of my head, i feel exactly how Hansel felt with "an imperial affliction" i feel cheated almost. We are left just as they were with few answers, and once again i understand why he did this to allow the viewer to feel like a real lose. This was the story of Hansel and Gus and once gus' has passed his story ended. No more can be written thus the read must live in the same world as Hansel a world with no more answers.... it just hurts...