I find it funny how often people on this website complain about someone misusing the word trigger, only to turn around and misuse it in an entirely different way by claiming that triggers only cause PTSD flashbacks.
Walking up some steep stairs left your joints aching and pained? Arthritis trigger.
An offhand and joking comment from a friend left you terrified that they can read your mind? Psychosis trigger.
An interruption to your routine left you floundering and unable to continue your day? Autism trigger.
Your coworker’s new perfume left your head swimming and pounding and now you feel like you might throw up? Migraine trigger.
Odd snow animations in your favorite video game caused you to have a seizure? Epilepsy trigger.
A sudden bout of stress in your life left your body screaming in pain and exhaustion? Fibromyalgia trigger.
The sound of a door slamming left you frozen and silent out of fear of being noticed? PTSD trigger.
Triggers are incredible varied and come in countless forms and can affect countless things. They aren’t just about flashbacks and I would even go so far as to argue that actual flashbacks are probably one of the least common results of a trigger.
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Summary: Being the only survivor of your little village and having nowhere to go, Captain Levi and his squad took you under their wings. You repaid their trust soon by becoming a soldier as well. But was it ever enough?
Warnings: Memory loss, Blood, Death, Titans, very bad description of wheelchair, Bad grammar, but basically if you watched Attack on Titan you can read this too
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" Y/N honey aren't you coming? The Scouts are passing by today! "
You turned your gaze from the window to your mother, she ran her callused hands on bandages on your head. Healed scars caught her moist eyes, once again reminding her that day she knew she lost you. Five years ago, it must have felt longer no doubt, when the great Wall Maria fell. You, of course, were fighting on the front sides for people's lives as a daring Garrison soldier. After ensuring the security of ten families, said your beloved comrade, you made yourself a bait for titans and lead them to Miche's squad. You saved the lives of dozens of people that day. That day was the day no one ever saw you again. It was the day name Y/N was going to be remembered as a hero, until two months ago.
Until a fellow soldier ran into you at the hospital in Wall Rose. She did not expect to see her old comrade, who is now a legend known for their death, especially not in the condition she found you in. You were sitting on a hospital bench, looking into nothingness, your once bright eyes were empty and all emotion was drained off of your face. You were confused, blank. No one knew your name, neither did you.
A few old friends contacted your family and commenders. The news travel fast so soon all three walls knew that the dear adopted child of the Becker family, a well-respected soldier after death, was back and have never actually left home.
Back again where we started, you looked at your mom with pity. It would be a lie to say you remembered anything at all, but still, she never gave up on you, after years and months, your family was here to tell you about yourself and your life. Your past and your identity.
"Mom," you looked up," this isn't right. Don't go. No."
"Why is that?" She raised an eyebrow at your muffled words.
"The Scouts never pass by our town, there is no reason for them to change their route unless a matter of hazard. They shouldn't be here. Don't -"
her giggles cut your words, "Honey, I know it's exciting to remember something! But I can't keep the whole village inside their homes, besides we will come back by five, okay? You will always be my little soldier, but hey, no need to save people anymore."
Then she left a quick kiss on your forehead and went to meet your aunties and uncles. You were now home alone with your two little cousins and your grandma. You were more anxious than ever, thinking that it's the worst-case scenario to leave a veteran who can't even remember their name, a chair bounded old woman, and two two-year-olds.
Shaking bad thoughts off your mind you drop a kiss on your grandma's hair and walk to the living room to check up on children. They were asleep on the blanket you spread on the floor. Just before picking them up, you decide to take a look outside. You can't see your dog, actually, you can't see anyone on the street. You must be dizzy, why is the floor shaking?
Gut-wrenching howls of dogs ring your ears, you can't take your eyes off the road. Your neighbour is on the road. He is crawling for his life, the crimson trail he left behind shining under the burning summer sun. His eyes meet yours, you see death. You see his missing leg and you see the creature going after its prey.
It's a titan, not taller than a one-story house. An axe caught your attention, right in the middle of its forehead. It was steaming; and there was a stupid look on its oddly humane face, which looked like hunger. The man's eyes still fixed on yours, he couldn't run anymore. Your heart almost stopped beating, your breath refusing to leave your lungs, he kept eye contact as the monster eats him away, slowly, bit by bit.
Your feet take you back, you look at two sleeping figures in fear and hurry to your grandma. She looks at you, you know she has seen them too. The bumping only gets faster and stronger, your plates shatter to the ground. A running titan passes by the window, followed by a green cape. Five minutes. It took five minutes to do this to you.
Nothing matters at the moment. You don't wanna live anyway. You don't know who you are and you doubt if you have a proper life ahead. Within a deep breath, you shake your thought away, you know your life mattered because their's did. And their life was tied up to your silly motivation, and their breath was fragile. Two kids and an old woman, this was your life's worth at the moment. You had to save them.
You run up to children and lend them to your grandmothers loving embrace. You cling into the handles of her wheelchair, "Trust me." is all you say. She is scared, kids are crying and you have that creepy look on your face. You open the door and step out.
That titan, the one that ate your neighbour, was now on the ground steaming. This was good, amazing news. It meant that Scouts have already cleaned the way to town. They must've started from more crowded areas, which meant that the town was safe, and now all you had to do was to take your little family to the outside of the village. Your house is close to the road. You can do it. Just don't overthink.
The street ahead of you is clean except for all the blood. You push the wheelchair, you run and run until you see the crossroad,
there is something bigger than a crossroad on the road. There is a titan, taller than the others you saw. With one foot, it's stepping on your neighbour's house, you hope she wasn't sşeepşng in there. Green capes are flying everywhere, there's something wrong. As almost like their blades don't cut anymore. You feel your knees weakening, before the helpless sight of their battle.
A soldier lands near you. He runs up to you, "I am taking the kids you RUN. RUN. LEAVE EVERYTHING THE TOWN IS SAFE JUST RUN."
You can't protest as he takes your crying cousins and slides away. You won't run. You will not leave your Grandma. The world is almost muted, you can barely catch her cries for you. You would understand that she was begging for you to leave her and survive, only if you listened.
Then a shadow falls on you.
Then a hand comes up to hold you.
This hand isn't a Scout's helping hand. It is a giant hand.
You freeze again. Right down to earth you stand. Titan is fast, it grabs your grandma. No, you hear her say.
No, you scream. You throw kicks, punches, you grab onto that think. Nothing helps. RUN, she begs.
She begs but you don't listen. Her blood rains down on you and you stay.
A pair of hands pull you away, this one isn't giant. They push you to the road in rage,
"Are you crazy?! RUN. RUN AWAY TO THE TOWN."
A flash of light blinds you. Thunder growls in all those chaos and you see bolts of lightning. There is another titan, attacking the bigger one. Soldiers on it pull away from one by one, one of them meets his gaze with yours'.
"RUN!"
And finally, you do as they say so. You run and don't turn your back.
Warnings: violence, small mention of blood, language, bad grammer, i can't spell, genarally what's inside Aot universe.
Summary: Being the only survivor of your little village and having nowhere to go, Captain Levi and his squad took you under their wings. You repaid their trust soon by becoming a soldier as well. But was it ever enough?
This is a long story. It's complicated, twisted, raddled; this is your life story. I will start from where you ended up, soon we will see how you ended up here. Later comes the reason why, probably story will keep going on until I forget about it.
From the start, the role World had put you to play, brought nothing but pain to you, and you turned to people around you and asked for their helping hand, they wiped off blood of their hands and told you that you were too dirty to be held, that you deserved the pain they caused since you were a child of people that once hurt someone whom they were a child of. They told you that violence and filth ran trough your veins, as they kicked you. You were a monster as they were the ones to beat you. You asked how they could know what monsters looked like so well, was it because they looked into miror every morning? How could such an innocent being, be so sure to recognise a devil?
Years and years later, the kicks and those questions lingered on your mind once again. Possibly for the last time, you knew it, another hit on the head would be your end very soon.
You took the last glance at the person looking down at your soul, and his venomous hissing pierced trough your blooded ears:
"Damn you, traitor. You betrayed us."
A/N: I have been feeling so empty lately so I started this fic. I am really bad at summaries and my writing can be a little shitty, BUT I needed to get this idea out of my head. Gifs are not mine btw.
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I walked into a big, open office with my mom. There was a giant forest in the backgraoud, which was my paradise because if I had to stay a place forever it would be a forest. I got excited, but I slowly aproached the desk where Michael from The Good Place sat. Ge said we were dead ect. I wanted to explore the forest. He kept talking but I don't remember what he said tbh. I assumed his first explanations would be lies, so spend my time checking my surroundings for dangers.
There was a big picnic area, where people just talked and seemed peacefull. What was said to me was that this wasn't the heaven we imagined, but it was like some sort of system where everyone was happier and had to be nicer; and work. Even the animals and plants could communicate so everyone had differant responsibilities aganist each other.
As we were walking down to a path, I saw the most beautiful black pars I have ever seen. I hushed my mom and showed her the majestic cat, she was just walking towards it. We, mesmerised, looked at the cat.
The cat looked at us.
He turned, " It's the end of shift Im heading home."
Then the other beautiful things followed the talking pars. A black leopard, a tiger, a lioness ect.
"I respect the worker rights." I say and we head back to the office.
I the office I see the Umbrella Academy. Five is losing his mind, Luther and Diago are rejecting something while Allison was talking to officers. They weren't glad to die.
Then I saw Klaus. Looking right into my eyes with realasiment. Our eyes were locked, he said "That's her. That's you."
I looked at Michael questioning, and he lead all of us to a picnic area again.
We all sat around the red plaid cloth in a circle. And they revealed everything.
Turns out I was actually Reginald Hargreeves' child that smh came out of an alien egg or however those things reproduce.
But I was also my family's child. Everything happens at he same time as you live two lives, he says. I guess I needed to be human to be born. It was my human mind that put everything in order of a lifetime while everything happened at once which my alien mind lived in.
He gave me back my paralel memories, and I was filled with the knowledge of a whole person.
I saw my other self, which has curly blonde hair with a complete diffarent face.
I saw my little self, 5 or 6, meeting the Umbrella Academy for the first time. They are babies.
"She is older than us," Vanya is surprised because I am in my 'current' body, a teenager with brown hair and asian-eastern features. With an accent and limited English.
I turn to my mom, whom I learned that was a hallucination, a human created for me to be brought to this world was dead because of me. Because I died. Because her life was tied to mine, to my mind. I want to cry, I turn to Klaus. His eyes are watering. He understands. I turn to ask something. I wake up.
