A.KANE

There’s only one person whose magic still lingers and no one has been able to lift it from my soul.

I may not be able to lift it but maybe someday someone will cast a greater spell and finally set me free from your chains.

I had a dream, yes a dream about you again. I can’t call it a nightmare because for a brief moment I was happy, then the dream ended.

I wish I was better at this, but I’m not. Why am I unable to move on from you? I’m lying next to another girl tonight but the thought of you continues to haunt me. The thoughts in my head questioning myself: “what if we never ended, I wouldn’t feel this way”. I came to the realization I’ve been doing this to myself and I know how to stop it.

After 5 long years, 5 grueling years of anguish and monotonous trials it’s finally here. My chance to start over from scratch, to bring back the me that I lost long ago.

I’m been picking up the shattered pieces for so long that during the journey I started becoming even more warped. Finally I’ve reassembled the image and the puzzle is now complete. I can finally move forward with my life and soon I will discard this current life and restart my old self.

I’m glad I persevered and endured everything, I’m not truly happy but I know this is the first few steps to getting it back. I can run free again, to pursue my starry eyed dreams.

A simple hello,

She embodied the color yellow.

I loved her like no other,

More than my own mother.

She meant everything to me,

Until she decided to flee.

I loved her so I let go,

My world turned white like snow.

She deserved someone more,

Because at times I was a whore.

I broke her and dragged her down,

I'm the reason she drowned.

But now she's free to fly,

A sunflower flowing in the sky.

I'm thinking about going full on sober and focusing on myself. The vices are fun but I need to be more disciplined and determined.

I'm gonna be more productive with my weekends, I'm going to do shows sober, I'm going to reorganize my thoughts. I want to read and be productive, I want to learn, I want to continue progressing myself.

I love the chaos, but I also love control.

Two people in different lives,

A simple event waiting to arrive.

The chronological time line

While you were temporarily mine.

This is the black lotus of the past,

Something that wasn't meant to last.

I chose to escape her cage,

Just so I could enter a new stage.

When I was set free,

I was able to find me.

A tragic event that was required

A relationship that was retired.

In the end,

We were two people in different lives,