You just don't observe.

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Fave color: dark red

Currently reading: Oscillating between The House of Fragile Things and Franz Kafka’s diaries and rereading Kuroshitsuji manga

Last song: Rihanna’s “We Found Love”

Last movie: Went to the cinema for the first time in two years to watch “Black Widow.” I don’t always like Scarlett, but the film was better than expected.

Last series: Trese and Lupin, which I have to finish now.

Tea or coffee: I love both. My drink of choice has always been jasmine green tea, but coffee I associate with vacation and the weekends.

Current activity apart from answering this: Am just lounging in the garden finally.

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Fave color: purple, but also Bourgogne red and petrol green!

Currently reading: some scientific papers regarding ALS and "Demian", by Herman Hesse.

Last song: Undisclosed desires by Muse.

Last movie: The Lego Batman Movie, I really wanted to re-watch it yesterday :')

Last series: oscillating between Gotham, Shameless and The Goldbergs.

Tea or coffee: I like both, but I really am a coffee person, like I can't absolutely function without coffee.

Current activity apart from answering this: just chilling and watching TV.

When I get a brand-new hyperfixation, it’s fireworks and butterflies in the stomach and stars in my eyes whenever I see anything related to it and sweet shivers down my spine whenever I hear someone mention it. It’s late nights researching every tidbit I can find about it. It’s the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning and the last thing I think about as I fall asleep at night. It makes me so indescribably happy and I can’t imagine my life without that thing.

But after a while, the fireworks fade and the butterflies go to sleep, and it’s not sparkly and new and exciting anymore. I don’t feel like I’m physically dying if I go an hour without thinking about it. It’s no longer the (only) thought that I fall asleep to at night. But instead, it becomes something old and familiar and deeply comforting. I can exist in the same space as it, just enjoying its presence, without needing to interact with it, just appreciating it and everything we’ve been though together: all the fics, all the fanart, all the hours of daydreaming. 

It’s turned into a deeper love that I know will stay with me always. I know those characters, those stories, will always have a special, deep place in my soul, and even if it’s been years since I’ve thought about that particular hyperfixation, I still feel something soft and warm unfurl inside me when someone mentions it or I unexpectedly run across something that reminds me of it.

Hyperfixations never go away for me. They turn into companions whom I may no longer be head-over-heels infatuated with, but whom I love from the deep places of my heart and whom I know as well as I know myself.

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