i hate all of you

“I realized true failure when you convinced me I couldn't save you anymore. Just as much saving as you needed, you in some way saved me. I knew being there for you was actually being there, being alive, being worthwhile. I guess our love was more like survival; the kind that helps you see the beautiful through the catastrophic. The kind that gives you hope, that someday, in some parallel universe, there's a chance for a perfect world. In a matter of minutes, things go crashing down, and I guess I know what it feels like now. No amount of my saving saved you, just like your pull, that's constantly gravitating myself to nothingness, locked in an empty void, caressed by your deviod. ”