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hellooo! it’s been a bit! hope you’re all well :) using this account less has been a great choice for me and is actually making me feel better in a major way. i don’t regret the time i spent on this account (if it wasn’t for this community i still wouldn’t even know what happened to me was csa) but i really doubt it’ll ever be healthy for me to be on here. once again, if you’re interested in staying in touch and want to follow my personal blog please pm me! we don’t need to be mutuals or have talked before or anything, i’m just not posting it here for privacy reasons because i go by a fake name here and my real name on my main. alright that’s it, please have a good day/night and stay safe everyone <3

hey guys :) sorry i haven’t been on here much as of late. i know it sounds basic and empty but i’m trying to get better lately, which is important for me because i’ve spent a long time letting myself feel sick because it’s all i know and i feel comfortable with it, and despite the fact that i’m trying to make progress, that’s still true. but even if i feel comfortable surrounding myself with things that make me feel worse, i don’t feel happy, and i want to have a good life, and i want to like being alive in general. i don’t think this account is very helpful because it just lets me surround myself with more things that remind me of my mental illnesses, and him, and how terrible i already feel. i’ll probably still be here occasionally but i need to stop being on here so often, basically. if any of you want to stay in contact please feel free to pm me and i’ll send you my personal blog, i would just link it here but i use a fake name here and my other blog has my real name on it. alright, that’s it i think, i love you all and i hope you’re doing well <3

lately, i honestly want to get better so badly, which sounds like kind of an obvious thing, but i’ve spent a long time purposefully triggering myself and wallowing just for the sake of feeling literally anything at all. but i don’t know how to recover at all. i don’t even have a clue. i worry that it’s too late now for me to get out of the hole i’ve spent so long digging myself into.