君が君らしく生きるため

As if this year wasn't already the worst for Christmas santa TOOK our peace and quiet too. For almost three weeks now the next wall family will creak non stop. Is it the bed is it the floor is it their rusted head, it doesn't matter the point is I live in a constant state of CREAKING! They have also relocated all their animated family talks to the bedroom. It's like suddenly they forgot they have a bunch of other rooms. I could literally and write down word by word their convos. Every day! This is how thin these dumb walls are because this is a 50 year old building made by a stingy geezer.

And yes I know you have to live with some noise but ALL THE NOISE? ALL THE TIME? The dingy ac below that sounds like a plane turbin all day and ALL NIGHT. The pot-purri of noises the old woman above can come up with anytime. Barking. Construction. Gardening...basicall every power tool has been tested here.

I can't relax and I've gone to the other side (insomnia) where i only sleep 3-4 hours and even when I clocked 7 i still couldnt stop yawning. I tried some earplugs ofc but my ears itch. The only ones i could keep in won't stop the creaking next to my head. Noise cancelling headphones are kind of a luxury rn plus am i supposed to live with them and sleep with them? It's simply ridiculous

What makes me absolutely livid is that they complained to us about noise years ago and we moved the tv to the other side of the house. I've never made any noise since and they've been relatively quiet too. And now they've suddenly decided to torture me. And the worst, the thing that makes you lose all hope is that when after many creaking days i yelled in frustration they told me to shut up. And and when they woke me up after midnight I slapped (i don't have a lot of upper arm strength) the wall once to remind them people usually have to sleep at night so they can work during the day they immediately started banging the wall. Four five times. Really hard! As if i was the one who woke them up. We're talking about psychopathic levels of assholery.

I was told i don't look my age but im sure i do cause other than sunscreen I'm lazy with skincare plus no makeup. It was probably the pigtails+hat. It's funny cause I only use that combo to not look like i took a dive in a river on my way. my head just sweats so much in this weather it's impossible to go anywhere and my hair is so thin and oily. But hats somehow always look so good on me hah

It was much needed pick-me-up cause the repairs and maintenance fight, the disconinued bus that goes to the super, the limited edition ice cream finally on sale sold out, the heat wave, the howling dog and the no help ig I was certain nothing good will ever happen in this place.

There was a sense& sensibility rerun and since i live under a rock i had fun going all oh it's hugh (he always looked like his shirt was trying to strangle him-and it should have succeeded; hate these wishy washy dudes) and rose (rude airhead tbh but all right) And Snaaape! (stand-up dude but old farts should stay away from barely legal girls mmkay) And HOUSE! He even sounded like him although he was very sweet in the last scene before he has to leave. Hated willowhatshisface from the start.

Then we caught a rerun if i Frankenstein and it was so bad it was funny. The dialogue was terrible overall but the mc narration sounded like an emo teen diary lmao. The special effect they reused with the human head in fire disintegrating and suddenly ugly monster head! was cracking me up every time. The two sides had a finale looking battle 20 minutes in. The pretty scientist lady wore nice skirt+shoes in the lab and changed into pants/casual when she clocked out?? And she didn't even kiss the "monster" whaat? Eowyn is arhcangel michael appointed gargoyle queen!! Comedy gold I'm telling you. And also vindicating cause it proves that the minute we stopped putting those stone creatures on buildings we started letting the demons in ahaha

-these small screens really take a toll.

-i think it's time to drop gbf for real. t's too tiring and all these years in my luck is still abysmal

-i don't like td either but i stopped pvp, chats etc and just click click click and click click with some click on the side for 5' so it can stay.

Tv part uuh four?

In a way I've gone back to my roots when you had to watch the episode when it aired and the internet was slow but the fans were dedicated and just genuinely passionate.

Tv (read) ptIII

Tv (read) ptII

When i was younger I'd go and rent a movie almost every day until videoclubs got phased out because streaming services. I moved on too but found I couldn't concentrate the same. It's like watching registers as a bg activity now so I must read/watch something else at the same time. And I only binge shows, I havent watched a movie in years hm.

Ok let's move to my new compromise: Tvvvv (read)

No more binging shows I guess. I doubt anyone cares about the old unpopular shows I gravitate to but I'm a poor chicken so :(((( I mean I get it, lots of people watch sports and current shit but we also pay triple the other countries do for internet and it's still the slowest. They started putting fiber but it's gonna be a while and let's not get into what the actually average salary is if you don't have a politician family/friend to find you a nice desk to sit on and stamp a paper whenever you feel like it grrrrrr

billy was a selfish violent prick. I knew they were gonna saddle zoe with him ugh she deserved better but also almost everyone in this dumb show was terrible

This dude watched mountains of horror movies but still threw the blunt weapon away and got close to the lady who has her hand behind her back and already kidnapped amd tried to murder them once. Zoe was right, he only wathced the nasties for the nasty aka the violence against women. Fucking creep I'm still mad they got together and that whiny loser of a bro is stuck doing the I'm jealous cause I'm secretly in the closet or maybe not haha what. And topher what the hell how????