my michael de santa headcanons:
(and some of them are just canon.)
• gets uncomfortable when people cry around him. for instance, as we know, trevor is a deeply emotional person and is very open about it, so when he cries, wails most likely, near michael, michael just wants to stop it. anxiously so. he doesn't know how to take care of crying and emotional people. tends to go stiff and silent. pat on the shoulder is the best he can do. (which for trevor is not a problem at all because, if he needs cuddles, he will just throw himself at him, and michael will let him take what he needs.)
• he's very emotionally guarded. (canon)
• likes to smoke menthols. (secretly. doesn't pair with the image of smoking cigars, does it.)
• strongly smells of cologne, the scent is manly and nice but combined with his natural mask, very strong, it makes your nose sting. still, it's not a bad smell. just intense. (pretty addicting too.)
• has a very sensitive neck, the sides and down his sternum. (that rose tattoo hurt like a bitch. whimp.)
• he's depressed and suffers from nigh terrors, nightmares and sleep paralysis. (canon.)
• drinks before bed to fall asleep. bourbon.
• ✧.*fragile masculinity and repression*.✧
• incredibly self loathing, drowns in guilt daily. (canon.)
• insecure about his weight and looks but won't ever admit it. ('insecurities about your looks are for women.')
• gaslighter 3000, he's overall very manipulative.
• likes blondes (amanda knows this, that's why she dyed her hair blond. also when they met, she was a blond too.)
• doesn't like mistreating/hurting women, but he's disgustingly ignorant and he's more of a misogynist that he realizes.
• i strongly believe he loves amanda. i believe you can love two people at the same time and he loves both trevor, and his wife.
• secretly wishes trevor and amanda would get along better, especially pre-ludendorff.
• has a humiliation kink.
• has irish (canon) and italian roots.
• he has a burst right eardrum, he's completely deaf on that ear. (canonish) it was caused by the injury inflicted by his father.
• resents trevor for living in a trailer. michael lived in a trailer his entire childhood, (and expirenced a ton of trauma during. a lot of anger, he felt when he was forced to live there originated from that, because trevor, unintentionally, forced him to relive that experience.) now, he's got a big mansion and resents trevor for choosing to live in a place like sandy shores, in a shitty trailer when he's got enough money to buy himself a villa or two.
my friend studies psychology and he shared an observation during our conversation about micheal:
'sarcasm to some degree is connected to being passive aggressive, and being passive aggressive is a pathological adaptation and should be worked on through therapy because it comes out from a very bad self image, low self esteem and very toxic world view.'