evil teenage girl

"i wanted to spend my tomorrows with him" that realization that exact thought word for word and he has it in the middle of a battlefield that will become that same mans graveyard in just a few short moments. do you ever think about that? how he admits to himself what he wants and immediately that confession is met with wedding bells and a kiss of death? this is the same ground the man he wanted in all of his tomorrows will be buried under. this is the ground he bleeds on at the same place and the same time as that confession of guilt. guilty of wanting. do you ever think about that? how admitting that to himself happens just before he has to bury wolfwood? do you think about that