Day 22: cold showers, surviving the weekend
sooooo... itās been a while since i posted. i havenāt kept up w/ the blogging like i wanted to, because frankly itās been a rough couple of weeks. but thatās another series of posts on another blog.
this morning i weighed in at 224.2 - which means i officially survived the weekend without gaining weight! WOOO!Ā
that was somewhat of a miracle, being fatherās day weekend, cramming myself full of bbq and cheating on my diet once on friday (i ate two meals). but that was the stress getting to me, from weeks of awful things.
in the mean time, iāve started taking cold showers. itās not fun, at first. in fact,Ā āat firstā means the first 30 seconds of every shower. trepidation. fear. knowing how awful it will be. but once you jump in and then jump around in the shower to warm yourself up, you get used to it.
iāve seen a number of blog posts recently that talked about the benefits. i canāt say i believe all the hype... but i thought it would be interesting to try for a while. plus, it will save on electricity from not using the hot water and iāll get done faster cause i donāt want to stand there and soak in the water, like i used to. so bonus on saving $.
over-all iām doing well w/ this 30 day diet of 1 meal a day. i donāt really feel the super hunger cravings anymore (sometimes, when i donāt get enough sleep) and i know how to fix them when i do (drink hot tea). i donāt feel the cravings for diet soda anymore, in the mornings. i canāt go until lunch time before having caffeine.Ā
but i do have social anxiety over meals and soft drinks, still. itās incredible how much of our society is structured around meals and social expectations with them. i *miss* drinking diet dr pepper more than i crave it. years of habit and all that. i miss going to every meal with family and friends, eating with them. i still go with my family, but itās hard to sit there, sometimes.Ā
itās the mental game that makes all of this really hard, after you get the courage to just try it.Ā
iām also sad that i wonāt hit 220lbs before this 30 day period ends. it would be a miracle if i did. i only have 8 days left. iāve lost 7.6lbs in these 22 days, though - which is nice to finally see a significant number...
but i really wanted to drop below 220 by the end of this 30 days.
guess iāll have to keep this up for another 30 days, through July (which may not be possible, as iāll be on vacation at Disneyland for a week). ugh. i have to plan for that now, before it kills my diet and i gain all my weight back.Ā