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i honestly don’t know how this happened but somewhere between my childhood and formative years i forgot how to exist like a normal person and started to either overthink everything or make disastrous choices without any proper thinking at all. no middle ground whatsoever

the whole “it takes a village” thing needs to translate into adulthood too bc i need support!! i need people i can lean on! i need people i can share my thoughts with!! i need a village of mfs who love me!! idc idc idc

Doing my best to be the older sibling I needed growing up

do you still say reading is one of your favorite activities/hobbies even though you haven’t actually read in months but you used to read like a book a day when you were younger so much so that it became a personality trait and now you for some reason cannot for the life of you make yourself read but you’re still emotionally attached to that part of you and hope by speaking it into existence you’ll someday rediscover that happy version of yourself or are you normal?

Queen of emotional self regulation (fold into myself and never come out for days on end whenever something emotionally taxing happens)

summer to-do list: unlearn internalized shame, sunbathe, read some good books

Realistically I could never get rid of tumblr because it gives me the illusion of a community of strange young women all around my same age, all slowly figuring out how to live too

‘alone’ is comfortable, ‘lonely’ is heartbreaking

I'm in my "I take care of me" era. I want her to like me. I want to impress her. I want to cook top tier meals for her and lay her down to sleep. I want her to stay excited about me. I want her to feel close to me. I want her to want to spend time with me. I want her to think I'm cool and irreplaceable because I take care of us both no matter the circumstance!!!!

babes like...life is beautiful and vivid, please dont be afraid of getting your hands in it just bc there might be some mud left over. You're in the body to experience good, positive, loving things. we are experiencing this universe as humans together, allow yourself the immersion experience!! be the type of person you're scared to lose.