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I’m made to stand out. That’s why you’re drawn to Me beyond those who do better fit the image of your life from the perspective of those around you. You think and think and overthink reasons why I’m not what you think you want, but deep down I know you want Me more than you want to admit.

Your spark ignited something deep within Me from the beginning, and that fire within Me has forged Me into something better than I was… better than I previously thought possible. The thought of you not wanting Me scares the living shit out of Me, but deep down, I know better. I know more about who I am now because of you. I no longer feel incomplete nor the need to fill any void within Me with substances to numb Me.

I don’t tell you “I love you” because those words have been a lie to the other women I’ve said them to in the past. You’ve seen that first hand. All the other guys who told you those words have been proven wrong to the point where you no longer believe the words even when you hear them in the most sincere way. I choose to show you how I feel rather than tell you. I know you hear the words through My actions because it scares you just the same. I’ve been scared too… the thought of losing you is My biggest fear, and for too long I have allowed that fear to hold Me back in many ways.

Even when you don’t talk to Me, I crave you in ways I can’t even describe. My skin raises at the thought of your touch. Your body responds to My touch in a way that tells Me everything I need to know about how you feel about Me. When I give you space, it’s not for Me to seek comfort elsewhere… it’s Me giving you time for your heart to tell your mind what I already know to be true beyond a shadow of a doubt…