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Lbr in the current society ppl see Cutting yourself: fucked up, probably mentally ill, doing it for attention Cutting someone else: Holy shit, metal af, that dude is insane don't mess with him man he'll fuck you up, badass I'M JUST SAYIN 🙏 8-9 years later you know what stayed with me that I'm proud of? It ain't turning the other cheek, it ain't "taking it like a man", It's the exact moment I heard "what the fuck are you doing?! Holy shit he's bleeding! What the fuck why you gotta be so serious?!"

LOOK im just saying some friends aren't worth it and you should just send em crying to the hospital and take the loss you don't need em

Also I kinda accidentally told my mom about the time I pulled a knife on a friend when I was 13. #awkward

Y'know sometimes I think about what my life would be like if I'd had the guts to just fuckin shank some of my friends way back instead of like just grinding thru a few years of getting jumped (assaulted? Idfk) on the regs y'know? Maybe I would still wear shorts, or pj's, or soft pants, or pants with elastic waistbands. Maybe I wouldn't cinch my belt up by my ribs. Idk man I mean my jump reflex chilled after 2-3 years so Who knows even

In retrospect I should not have taken it as such a personal failing for not coming clean abt self harm stuff to my ex when we were together like... I got there eventually.... But I was scared and panicked the first few times she asked what the scars were.... I mean I understand trust is really important and like I get it.... But my reaction is a reflection of where I'm at.... And we can only hope to be better in the future and think abt how we affect others.....