Mercy (they/he)

it's so scary when i split or am feeling especially moody as a bpd person and start acting so mean for no reason and i am completely aware of it as it is happening but it's like my empathy or risk awareness are hidden behind glass and they just bang on it but i don't seem to care

recently i vented to my friends and my bf about how i don't know who i am whatsoever and how it's actually destroying me because at my grown age i shouldn't be jumping from personality to personality and the response i got was "we know it's hard to accept yourself but we accept you" and it made me split for a solid day because that wasn't what i meant at allll

i am so fucking scared of being unintentionally abusive