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I’m getting mad, so here’s something I’ve realized while reading The Order of the Phoenix again. (Please keep in mind that my books are in Italian and some concepts might be hard to explain, I apologize for my English mistakes)

In chapter 14, when The Trio talked with Sirius, he said that two years before Dolores Umbridge had written a law against werewolves that made it almost impossible for Lupin to find a job.

Now ask yourself this question. Why two years?

What had happened two years before? During Harry’s third year? Oh, right. The Magical World had discovered that one of Hogwarts’ teachers (someone who was in constant conctat with their children) was a werewolf. Does that ring any bell?

But that’s not all! If we take a look at chapter 15, in the Daily Prophet article we can see a familiar name: Remus Lupin. In a newspaper. Where everyone can read it. “The werewolf Remus Lupin”. No wonder he couldn’t find a job! And it’s not the first time the Daily Prophet has written about him, as it’s stated in the article itself. There must have been a huge scandal when it had all come out.

So basically, when Snape decided he couldn’t bear not having what he wanted (for example, SIRIUS BLACK GETTING KISSED BY A DEMENTOR) and spilled the secret, he didn’t only tell the whole school. He didn’t only tell the kids’ parents. The told the whole Magical World.

He told the whole Magical World that a man who had kept his condition secret all his life was a werewolf.

And the Magical World responded with a law against werewolves.

So, basically, Snape didn’t only ruin Remus Lupin’s life. He ruined the life of every single werewolf in the UK.

Percy: Their parents taught them rules like, "Wearing a hat at the dinner table is rude"

Let’s start from the beginning. Before Snape even reaches Hogwarts, he drops a tree branch on petunias head, which shows he wasn’t afraid to hurt people. We know that as a child, Snape was deeply invested in the dark arts. This was part of the the reason James hated him. Snape, in return hated James and the Marauders by extension. Snape complained about the Marauders to Lily, saying that their pranking was rude and mean. Snape however, was part of a friend group who bullied Mary McDonald, a friend of Lily’s. By bullying, I mean cursing her.

Snape also called Lily a mudblood when he was 15. He then tried to justify it by saying that she and she only was different. He also said it “slipped out” meaning he had been saying it in his head for a while.

Snap joins the death eaters, and tells Voldemort about the prophecy. When he finds out that the child in the prophecy is Harry, he begs Dumbledore to save Lily but he doesn’t care about James or Harry. If he really loved Lily he would want James and Harry safe too.

Fast forward 11 years, Harry’s first year at Hogwarts. On Harry’s first day, Snape asks Harry difficult potions questions which Harry didn’t know. As a professor, he should know that Harry only just found out he was a wizard. This is one of many examples of Snape bullying his students. Snape is often condescending to his students (minus the Slytherins). Perfect example being Neville. Neville's greatest fear was Snape, which is so messed up because a student shouldn’t be scared of his teacher; especially when this specific students parents were tortured into insanity by a death eater. Reasonably, Neville's greatest fear should be Bellatrix  Lestrange. Now there are many other occasions when Snape has bullied his students, but one that i remember vividly is when Draco hexed Hermione to make her teeth grow to an abnormal size. Snape looked at them and said, and I quote: “I see no difference.” Also, when Rita Skeeter was slut shaming Hermione in an article, Snape read it out loud in the class.

In Harry’s third year, Snape substitutes a class for Remus. In this class he teaches about werewolves, the homework he sets is how to recognize and kill them. Now not only does this risk exposing Remus, it takes away Remus’ right to teach werewolves as what they really were - afflicted people. Basically, when he exposed Remus, he took away Remus’ chances of getting another job in the wizarding world. Remember, Remus had lived in poverty for a majority of his life and being a professor at Hogwarts was his one chance to escape that. This is pretty annoying considering Remus was being civil to Snape. In the shrieking shack, Snape ignores Remus and Sirius and wants to give them to the dementors without listening to their story - all because of a childhood grudge. (Which the marauders matured from). Constantly made jabs at Sirius for not being able to do much for the order knowing that it wasn’t Sirius’ fault.

Physically abused Harry during occlumency lessons. When he was in Harry’s head for the occlumency lessons, he walked into the memory of the mirror of Erised and said: “feeling sentimental Potter”. Like what a jerk - as if he wasn’t the reason Harry had no parents.

That whole thing when he ripped apart a picture of a happy family to pretend Lily’s love was directed to him. That was creepy and obsessive. Walked over James’ body and ignored a crying child so he could cry over Lily’s dead body - a demonstration of his love, creepy and unhelpful. (I know this wasn't in the books, but most Snape stanners are movie watcher)

He invented the Sectumsempra spell. It was his specialty which shows that he used it a lot. He even cursed of George’s ear! This spell aims to kill which is slightly messed up for a 16 year old boy to make.

Now people try to justify his actions by saying that he had an abusive childhood. Sirius had an abusive childhood and still managed to be a good person. Harry was neglected and still managed to be a good person. Being abused as a child is no excuse to be a bad person.

They also try to justify his actions by saying he was in love with Lily. He was kind of obsessed with her but that’s a whole other debate. Just because he liked her, doesn’t mean him being a jerk should be ignored. What’s even creepier is that if Harry looked like Lily, Snape would’ve liked him.

Forgetting to take one fucking dose of medicine, while under a fuckload of stress and dealing with a bunch of shit (teaching a class, Harry’s after-hours patronus lessons, all of the drama with Sirius and finding out that the friend who you thought was a traitor wasn’t really the traitor and that the real traitor was still out there and could potentially hurt your dead friends’ child who you really care about) does not make you an evil person or an asshole who is “purposefully endangering kids”!

"I'm sorry."

"I'm not interested."

"I'm sorry!"

"Save your breath"

It was nighttime. Lily, who was wearing a dressing gown, stood with her arms folded in front of the portrait of the Fat Lady, at the entrance to Gryffindor Tower.

"I only came out because Mary told me you were threatening to sleep here."

"I was. I would have done. I never meant to call you Mudblood, it just--"

"Slipped out?" There was no pity in Lily's voice. "It's too late. I've made excuses for you for years. None of my friends can understand why I even talk to you. You and your precious little Death Eater friends-- you see, you don't even deny it! You don't even deny that's what you're all aiming to be! You can't wait to join You-Know-Who, can you?"

He opened his mouth, but closed it without speaking.

"I can't pretend anymore. You've chosen your way, I've chosen mine."

"No-- listen, I didn't mean--"

"-- to call me Mudblood? But you call everyone of my birth Mudblood, Severus. Why should I be any different?"

He struggled on the verge of speech, but with a contemptuous look she turned and climbed back through the portrait hole...

Maybe it's only me, but I've been raised in a way that when I do something wrong, I actually acknowledge it. Without context (and Lily), I would have no idea what snape was apologizing for.

Same when he apologizes again.

Usually when you mess up, you apologize properly, not through blackmail and emotional manipualtion. Or you give the person some space if they refuse to talk to you.

He never meant it ≠ he never thought of her that way.

It slipped out, which meant he had been referring to her in that manner more than once. Either when he was with his friends or at the very least in his mind. Another possibility is that his friends reffered to her this way and he didn't contradict them.

Lily had been hanging to the hope that Snape would change. She had defended him for years. Even with several people attempting to make her open her eyes.

Snape at this point, had been an aspiring Death-Eater for years. Even while knowing how they felt and said about muggle-borns, including Lily. This, in my mind confirms what I pointed above. It also showed he had placed his belief and bitterness for the muggle-borns above his friendship with Lily, and that it was far from recent.

Lily had likely known their friendship was doomed for some time. She still remained friend with him because she couldn't forget the boy who had introduced her to magic. And probably didn't know what had changed.

Unlike what the majority of Snape apologists proclaim, the Marauders had nothing to do with Snape joining the DE. He chose to join Voldy's ranks. While knowing that Lily would eventually be a target due to being a Muggle-born. So Lily can't have been very high on list of priority.

This could mean she either heard him call other muggle-borns this way, or heard it from her friends. I believe if she heard him say the word, she would had called him out on it. He probably promised he wouldnt do it again, which she believed. So when she would hear it from her friend, she would probably be skeptik.