Havoc :3

Shame.

Shame I felt after dragging unrelated people into a situation that was completely my responsibility, my consequence to deal with.

Shame I felt after seeing how the chain of events continues and passes drags others into it, as if I bring unfortune everywhere I go.

“It will be your fault”

Maybe it already is.

The people who have trust in me end up losing things valuable to them.

Permafrost.

You lost the one thing people seem to value the most surrounded by snow. Ironic, isn’t it?

If I stripped you down to nothing what would you be in the end? What’s really at your core?

And I realize this because I’m the same, but at least whenever I’m drowning I make an effort to swim. You sit there in the water and you either drown or you wait until someone will drag your body out. But then again, what do I expect from you? You could’ve had a fresh start and instead you stay stagnant. You are stagnant. Change starts with you, if you wanted to be loved then start by truly trying to love.

I thought I told you this all those months ago, that you will make yourself miserable unless you try. You are so fixated on the idea that if you stay standing still then that’s your “healing” then that’s your “trying”. Of course you’re miserable here because you don’t let yourself feel anything but miserable. Of course you’re suffering because you refuse to do anything but suffer you go around in these cycles of “improvement” where you get a new friend, a new team, and then you return to the state you think you’re most used to of making yourself miserable over and over again looking for anyone to help the poor poor jb. And you get no where

fem flamefrags!!

Under the light of the moon, a flower shall now bloom

Together till the end of time

I’ll be yours

And you’ll be mine