Finally, I remembered to make the text only version. Here you go! (I just transferred all the text from the image in my previous post!!)
The character I introduced back in September, Nova, has been a pain in my ass lately. It's not out of character, but it's still annoying.
Nova.. he's annoying. And I don't say this as his creator because I dislike his design or personality, or his actions, his lore..
He just feels foreign to me. I'm unsure as to why that is, since I'm sure I didn't skip any step when creating him and giving him depth- I did as I always do. Still.. he feels like a stranger.
As if all I know about him are assumptions, rumors. It's odd.
He's been around for a while now, so it's very.. off-putting to me, how I feel like I don't know him, since I do, technically..
It's like I'm sat at a table with him, neither of us talking.
His face is gone, (which is something he can make happen, btw) and it's not like.. wrong, but it's also not right either.
He's quiet, and.. that's fine, really- he's not too chatty, neither am I, so it's not out of character.
The silence isn't awkward, either, at least for me..
I'm not sure what I'm getting at. I DO feel like we should be talking, like his face should be there, with whatever basic expression he chooses, or any random and fancy decor for the occasion.
I could take his mask off, if I wanted to see his actual face
Even break it, it wouldn't be hard. Erasing it, putting a face there.
But it doesn't feel like that'd be different..?
Or correct. Even drawing his hand reaching out, hesitating or surprised, seems.. weird. Off. Like I'm not supposed to. I would see his face, and his mask would be in my hand. But drawing it, picturing it, gives me the sensation he's correcting me.
"I wouldn't make that face."
"My mask doesn't have a crack. Was that accidental? Fix it."
And that's not.. right. According to me, he would.
It's a little creepy, because it's all on my head. He is in my head, he's a character I made. If I say he would react some way, he would. So why is he butting in my creative process and correcting me? I didn't make him that nosy, though I did make him annoying.
Is that his way of annoying me? Being a stranger, different from what I know and remember..
I don't know, and it annoys me, enough to share. He pisses me off. He wins.
Now.. what do I mean by, he wins? I'm not sure, really, though I do feel like I'm beginning to like this side of him. Maybe he wins in that way, because I feel like I should make it canon. He's an annoying little fella, alright. And I feel like that would make us.. closer, like it'd make me feel like I'm not a stranger to my own character anymore. Like he's not a stranger to me, his creator. He's the first I've had this issue with, having made many characters.. it's very annoying, he just butts in and messes with my perspective of him when he feels like it. Should that be happening? I don't know.
Edit:I just realized I introduced him on late September, so I'm correcting that in this and the last post LMAO
