19 actually means 4

The slow realization that they have been loved not like a child, but as a trophy. But it was love nonetheless. Wasn't it?

it's normal and actually good for your health to see yourself in the most guilt ridden character you've ever seen in your life

john winchester and bobby singer were in a co-parenting situationship for years like that's bobby's deadbeat husband

thursday…. i knew i was forgetting something

SAM STILL THINKS OF JESSICA OOHHHHHHHH THE ETERNAL GHOST!!!!!!!!!!! THE ORIGINAL GHOST!!!!!!!!!!!! FOREVER MEANT TO HAUNT THE STORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's nuts how common it is to not allow children to be angry, even (especially) in households where adults are angry all the time. As a child I knew my own anger was unacceptable--not just expressing it outwardly but feeling it at all. So now as an adult my immediate reaction to my own anger is often to feel guilt instead of like. Noticing when someone is being rude or unfair or my boundaries are being violated or whatever. fucked up.

to this day "who is allowed to be angry" has been an incredible benchmark for teasing out who, in abusive situations with mutual accusations and DARVO happening, is being abusive and who is being abused. one of my favorite resources about this, the Creative Interventions Toolkit, phrases the question "who sets the weather?" in the relationship and I think about it so so often when I think about my own childhood. I was parentified in a way that set me up for future abusive relationships, because I had to soothe my parents' anger while not being allowed to feel angry myself. I am extremely grateful to everyone outside myself - friends, therapists, partners - who's gotten angry on my behalf about how I'm treated or let me know something I'd been excusing or blaming myself for was actually Not Okay. I guess the good news here is that it's possible to learn how to access anger again in a healthy way, it just takes support, like doing physical therapy for a muscle that didn't develop quite right.

I keep thinking abt how lucifer was visiting rowena and sam's dreams at the same time. His greed sickens me.

iwtv continues to be so smart in its portrayal of memories and trauma, the way lestat’s memories of his family are so obnoxiously loud, everyone’s screaming all the time for no reason and everyone’s acting like caricatures, like an actual assault on the senses, as if lestat’s mind is filled with unbearable noise every time he thinks about them. lestat’s memories coming at him all fragmented and loud and violent, attacking him and beating him into submission as he desperately tries to escape them is such an interesting contrast to how louis would carefully weave a thread of his past pretending the glaring holes in it weren’t there

I think they did a great job of showing how degrading lestat found life with his family. as a lover of beauty, he found the ugliness of their minds and their lifestyle unbearable. something that really touched me about that part of the book was how dazzled he was by the cleanliness of the monastery.

i think the scientology speedrunners should start visiting the hospital mitch mcconnell is supposed to be in. i think it would be enriching for them

supernatural is such a fuckass show to try and analyze because ill look at the significant decline in sam being the one to actually drive the impala and draw up conclusions about how it's a metaphor for sam losing agency over his life and quite literally letting dean, his perpetual north star, take the wheel. and then. i find out that the real reason sam stops driving much is because. they didn't wanna let jared "drive it like it's stolen" padalecki get behind the wheel on set. okay. my fault for trying to drown in a puddle.

The thing about how you will talk like a tumblr user for the rest of your life is that usually people won’t clock it but sometimes you’ll meet someone and you’ll actually be able to see a look of painful recognition in their eyes when you say some tumblypoo bullshit while everyone else just thinks you had an epic original thought. And it’s gonna make you a little bit sorry you were born

humans should be able to do a special Ultra Sleep after major life accomplishments where you're just out for like 32 hours or something and then you wake up fully refreshed in every way

we really should be calling it fanworks, not content

I'm here for fun and community not to rp a mega corporation's underpaid social media intern