I’d love to say that this is the last letter that I’m going to write about you. You might think that this is nothing but bitterness, go ahead. Say whatever you want. I just feel like I need to pour my heart out at this very moment.

I have moved on. I am okay now. I am healed.

And I forgive you.

Thank you for breaking my heart. You crushed me and it helped me find the person that truly deserves the love that I had for you. The unconditional and selfless love that I offered you. The love you threw away.

I loved you. I am a hypocrite if I say that I don’t regret it ‘cause I do. I shouldn’t have loved you the way I did. I loved you too much that I left nothing for myself. I know that there will never come a time that you will believe this but like what I used to tell you, “This is for you.” All that I do, all my plans, wherever I am now, I did for you. I wanted to give you everything in the world, I just needed some time to work with it. And while I am in the process, you left me. It felt like every drop of blood and sweat that I got became worthless. Like, why am I still doing this when the reason behind it is gone? It was never for anyone else, it was for you. All for you.

I didn’t give up so easily, I bet you know that. I wanted to tell you everything, you didn’t let me. If you only did, I know you will want to come back to me again. I am sure of that. Again, I didn’t have a chance to do that, and until now, you still don’t know. I don’t think you want to know either. I fought for our love and hoped that we could still be together despite the complicated situation. But I’ve had enough, more than enough actually. I realized that I cannot fight for a love that isn’t there anymore. So there, I stopped.

(I love the fact that I am writing this now and there are no more tears in my eyes. I am finally free.)

I moved on. Not because you want me to, but because I wanted to be fair - to myself and to the person who loves me. I wanted to give him as much love as he gives me.

He is so good. You are better in many ways, your looks, your smile, your eyes, almost everything. But there is one thing you can never be ahead of him, he loves and treats me better. I guess that’s all that matters. After all the storms that I got from loving you, I don’t want to care about anything at all, except the love that I needed to feel. His love, it healed me. He made me forgive everyone and everything that hurt me. I can never wish for anything now but for his love not to fade.

He doesn’t make me laugh the way you did. We don’t have the stolen moments and stares and kisses that we used to have. We are not like us, our relationship is no fairytale like ours. The love that we share was truly different, it sure was one of the best feelings that I ever felt in my life. Its not that easy to forget, I honestly still remember you every now and then. But don’t get me wrong, I aint getting the same love anymore. You and me, I know will not be replaced, yet it could be erased.