hello 2019 and especially pride month

Something I’m very interested in is how people with bipolar experience “the switch”. I really rarely see it talked about, but surely it must be a pretty major part of it? I know that often there’s periods between mania and depression that aren’t specifically either, but that’s a switch in itself, and for me at least I do tend to get depression straight after mania. For me it often happens when I’m asleep, or maybe just gradually enough that it’s quite hard to notice. One particularly awful time it literally was just like flipping a switch, one second I was buzzing (though in that I’ve-been-manic-for-weeks-and-want-to-die way) and suddenly I was having what felt like a panic attack, I was hallucinating, and then I spent the next few weeks in bed bc of the worst depressive episode I ever had. 

It happens a lot when Im asleep too. My dreams sort of hint at whats going on. When Im becoming manic my dreams become more fantastical, colourful, and high energy. I tend to become slower and more sullen and teary eyed when depressed. The mania is more noticeable because I will break out in a sweat getting excited over a New fixation and TREMBLE and get goosebumps and it’s all going SO FAST. It feels like a pressure building up in me that I need to deal with NOW.

yo I’m all about supporting girls wearing whatever the fuck they want and booty shorts are a-ok in my book but I also think it’s important to realize that this is also one of the only clothing options given to young girls when it comes to summer wear. if you’re shopping in clothing stores or sections targeted at teenage girls it’s nearly impossible to find anything in-between booty shorts and knee-length capris. like booty shorts are literally the only shorts marketed to us and I think that speaks a lot more about the hypersexualization of young girls by our society/the clothing industry than it does about the actual kids wearing them tbh

men really be talking to me and think im listening

ya

im such a possessive person i just saw someone calling Karl Marx just “Karl” like they’re on a first name basis and i got jealous

LITERALLY POSSESSIVE OVER DADDY COMMUNISM! I THINK HE WOULD UH HAVE A FEW THINGS TO SAY ABOUT THIS!

u know what . i wish i had never posted this