just remembered tumblr existed… idk why i ever left. superior platform in every way

i wouldn’t even know where to start

i don’t understand why, no matter what i do, i always end back up at the same place. feeling the same way. behaving the same way. crying over the same bullshit. i can’t remember a time in my life that i haven’t felt like this. what am i doing wrong? where am i going wrong? why does existing feel so wrong? i don’t feel like i belong here. i feel like nothing matters anymore and everything is always getting increasingly more difficult. life just chips and chips away at you, ever so slowly. so slow that you don’t notice until you’re 24 and reading your posts on a blog from a decade ago, and somehow, you feel exactly the same way reading those today as you did when you wrote them.