Religious trauma this way flies

But she's happier living free.

You see Natalie? Remember that she's not your enemy.

She's just happier living free.

You pray for nostalgia but only get a lick of it

Cause she's fighting a war

And you are the thick of it.

Oh, Natalie's no tragedy trapped in a memory

I sold my soul to an angel

And then lost the only home I'd ever known

Traded my dagger for a blanket

Not knowing I would need to hold my own

I gave and I gave

And I trusted and I caved

And you ran away with my heart

Oh, it all stays the same

I'm the one to blame

Cause I could never trace you to the start

How can I trust you

How can I trust anyone with anything

When every time I open my mouth and my mind

They leave

Oh, the tongue, that vicious organ

Ran away with all the words I'd never say

I have spilled all my secrets

The wine stains on the rug are to stay

I pushed and I pulled

And I came out the fool

And the remnants of our game stayed in my mind

In just one fateful day

Everything had changed

And our past selves are too deep now to find

How can I trust you

How can I trust anyone with anything

When every time I open my mouth and my mind

They leave

And I am left with chess boards and dances

And I am left with the games I tried to play

Where the rules are all truth and consequences

And the lie is the only place that's safe

How can I trust you

How can I trust you

[Crowd singing a hymn]

[Record scratch]

Jesus Christ, we're at it again?

I flushed my pills.

You're an idiot.

I succumb to the urge to lie face down in the dirt.

Dio mio being faithful never works.

I go out with a whimper in the dark.

(Eli Eli lama sbachthani)

Of me, this, is so fucking typical.

I always end up being just a little hypocritical

When I tell people they can reach their mark.

I just want to give up

Just want to fall down

Into the well of disassociation.

Don't feel that I'm enough

To complete the tasks I'm given.

This is how it's written:

I'll never make it.

Ohh

I (oh)

Don't wanna go into the dark with a whimper

I want to be bigger

Want to reach my potential

Every eventuality

And I (oh)

Don't want to live my life in this vicious cycle

No matter what is written

No matter what I'm given

I'm gonna make it

Ohh

I don't want to give up

Don't want to fall down

Into the well of disassociation.

Even if I'm not enough

To complete the tasks I'm given.

Even if that's how it's written,

A soldier stands on a mound of the dead

Waving a white flag

Cities burnt, a country in shreds

In this end no peace is had

A business man smiles, a pen in hand

Signs away his friends

“In life” he says “we all understand

These pawns are a mean to an end”

Son of Violence forgetting your roots

You think you have nothing to lose

Son of War this wicked empire

Your heritage sings in fire

A mother wails on the grave of a child

Lost for a “higher cause”

A choir of screams hopeful and wild

With no answer from her gods

A poor man fights for a scrap or a bone

As hunger eats his mind

The poor man fights for water and a home

That he can never find

The business man laughs, a coat on his back

In an office big and warm

“These folks” he says, “the traits that they lack

Are what bring them to harm.”

Son of Violence forgetting your roots

You think you have nothing to lose

Son of War this wicked empire

Your heritage sings in fire

Son of Hate you spread the seeds

Of the downfall that you will reap

Son of Pride your ancestry burns

With the lessons that you will learn

The poor man learns to buck and to fight

Against the endless storm

The mother finds in herself a new light

Cold what once was warm

The soldier left to ponder and sit

To think on peace and war

The business man cries “this can't be it”

Oh little miss perfect

Won't you get off your high horse

But, yes dear, you're correct

And we'll agree of course

Oh little miss sunshine

Our perfect golden girl

You'd lie for the punchline

What gave you the nerve

Oh I can't take another day

In your smile’s rays

It makes my teeth ache

And puts me in a haze

So in the words of Kendrick

I hate the way you talk, you walk

this is no miss take

Fuck you and your dog

Oh little miss smiles

I swear to tell the truth

I'd walk 1000 miles

Just to get away from you

Oh little miss joyful

You think that you light up the room

But we've all got an eye full

Can't tell if it's your face or your moon

Oh I can't take another day

In your smile’s rays

It makes my teeth ache

And puts me in a haze

So in the words of Kendrick

I hate the way you talk, you walk

this is no miss take

Fuck you and your dog

Oh little miss perfect

You don't deserve my hate

But, baby, I'm petty

So I'll tell it to you straight

Yeah, in the words of Kendrick

I hate the way you talk, you walk

No, this is not a miss take

Be like the bird that always has another song to sing

With a soul made of light and noise

If like the bird that cannot fly when it loses its wings

Who am I if I lose my voice

Dull the pain with pills they said

But the pills they dull my head

The music and the color gone

Be like the tree with roots in ground deeper than the bows in sky

Sturdy trunk standing tall and straight

If like the tree when cut down the sap can only cry

Who am I if I don't create

Forgetting all the melodies

Of all my sweat born symphonies

Paintings fading all to grey

Shadows of what was portrayed

The sounds and the shades all wrong

It's all wrong

It's all wrong

I don't know who I am

When you remove the pattern

That I have relied on for years and years

If you remove the mask

That I have clung to through blood and tears

I am just the shape

Of what I can create

Can you feel it?

The burn of a knife through your tender flesh.

The tearing, gnashing pain of your living breath. 

When the ache in your limbs and the beat in your chest 

Is all you have left.

Who hold me close so tenderly

Who always sees the best in me

No one like my-]

You talk about reform

You speak about progress

You say you're taking a stand

The ones that you cry

While they're in need of helping

I'm within reach of your hand

But my plights invisible

In your eyes dismissible

As long as I am still able

To live another day

When I need your comfort

You think of others

Because I am still alive

To live another day

Ahh

Mother hear me

Mother help me

Mother keep me safe

From the night encroaching

Mother see me

Mother guide me

Mother give me light

For the dark approaching

Fast

Ahh

I'm still in need

Of your tender care

Oh Mama I

Still need you here

Don't leave me in

The dark alone

Oh Mama please

And then she only laughed when he said that it was mean.

Now Marys always lonely and all her friends are gone

Cause they left when she would not admit to being wrong.

Oh common courtesy

Is easy can't you see?

Don't do things that will hurt everyone else.

Common courtesy.

Have some decency.

Keep your inhibitions and keep to yourself.

Johnny went to heaven and got kicked straight to hell.

He didn't know what went wrong he thought his life was swell.

Johnny asked the devil what earned him this grave.

He said, "You heated up your fish in the communal microwave!"

Oh common courtesy

Is easy can't you see?

Don't do things that will hurt everyone else.

Common courtesy.

Have some decency.

Keep your inhibitions and keep to yourself!

Michael was a salesman going door to door.

He never took a "no" he just came back more and more.

Now Michaels in the basement of some guy named Jeff.

Jeff sold all his organs and you can figure out the rest.

Oh common courtesy

Is easy can't you see?

Don't do things that will hurt everyone else.

Common courtesy.

Have some decency.