rheiya ferl

I've been wanting to get back on track with my personal life for some reason. I am missing someone (we haven't seen each other for a loooong time) but all of a sudden, I also missed myself. I missed myself in a sense that I haven't been posting on my stories like I usually would. I wanted to get some normalcy during my mundane days by watching series after work. I felt like somewhere during this month of October, I kind of lost myself. But maybe I feel this way because the month of September to October has been hectic as fuck and I've been stressed. I now feel the pressure of helping the team to contact people and make a sale and yet I do not know how to converse on the phone. I literally have no idea of what is the workaround and what I would say to clients. I have no training whatsoever to be doing what I've been told to do. I missed just being a content creator but I know that I won't grow just by being there. So now, I have no choice and no say but to just do. They said we would focus on buyer's acquisition but every week for this month we would have property visits which is the opposite of what they told us we should do. They say this is just a temporary thing but I do want to do everything I can to help.

Last night I had dinner with my workmate, because I want to relax and feel at ease and want to get that sense of normalcy I was talking about. And it does feel good. I just really hope I get a glimpse of "getting back on the horse." Or at least ride the wave of this new change in my routine because I want everything to be exactly the way it was, and I don't if that's a good thing or if that's just my comfort zone talking.

Big sighs,