hands curl into fists at his side;  he carves copper crescent moons into the womb of his palm,  teeth gritting at the unmistakeable split of skin.  wintertide devours all.  their dawn turned to dusk.   a sigh drags from his lungs  &  he deals the final cut with this,  a mournful  ------    ❛❛   i don’t know how to help you like this,  shōto.   ❜❜   >  @feyiun

he’s a rotten & hollow thing.    an open wound left to fester,      the result of an innocence stolen.      his eyes had been a warm honey once,  now hiraeth-kissed & devoid of mirth expected for his youth as he glares to the viridescence below.    ❛❛    ugh,   this is hopeless.   ❜❜    it’s a curse,   he thinks.   he is damned.  each breath haphazardly drawn only serves as a reminder of all he’d lost.   all that had slipped through ivory fingers as he failed to grasp onto it.   (    failure,   failure,  failure!   will your existence ever amount to anything more?   )    ❛❛   i can’t do this,  it’s just going to keep blowing up in my face.   ❜❜   >  @jutaitaiten​

❛❛    this party is lame,  don’t you think?    ❜❜      calloused fingertips pick languidly at the sleeve of his robe;  the fabric feels suffocating on his shoulders now,  his benign temperament wavering as fatigue makes a home in his bones.  gold eyes flicker to meet hers    (  a mirror of him in more ways than one,  synonymous in their existence.  )   he offers a smile then, gentle & honest.    ❛❛    lets go for a walk,  i can’t hear myself think anymore.   ❜❜     >  @verglase

❛❛    i’m tired,  shōto.  ❜❜   his voice is a soft-spoken whisper.  muffled slightly as his visage dips forward,  forehead pressed into another’s chest.   this rotten world swallowed a boy,  promised a grave & absolution,  then spat him back out,  laughing cruelly in the face of all his bitter helplessness.   he allows himself only this brief moment of melancholia,  placing his vulnerose self in the care of his lover.     ❛❛     i don’t know if i’m making any of the right choices anymore.   ❜❜    >   @feyiun​

❛❛     what is with you?     ❜❜      he heaves a shallow breath;  desperate to soothe the ache that flares & burns his lungs. to his words he forces a bite, the result of his festering chagrin.  his patience for this game is wearing thin,  pulled tight as a livewire & ready to snap.     ❛❛   this isn’t fair.  you’ve been ignoring me all day & now you’re making me run drills & penalties more than anyone else here. have i done something to upset you?    ❜❜    >  @feyiun​

ELLIE I WILL SOB!!!!! i love you SO much and i am so grateful for you everyday 🥺 honestly all of our dynamics fill me with so much joy and i will follow you anywhere even if i know nothing about the source because your writing is such a highlight to my dash. thanks 4 being my bestie and always helping me when i need it 💗

vic my love i will support u anywhere you go 🥺 thank you SO much for explaining aot’s wack ass backstory for me bc i’m Big Dumb ily 😌 don’t forget to pick up ur clown suit for sending me this 🗿 emoji instead of a heart though 🤡

angel !!!!! when did u get so lame nyehehe 🥺👉🏻👈🏻 pls u already have my heart and i love u so much, i will you lots of keeses !!! 🥰 thank u for letting me spam you and not getting sick of the ten thousand tiktoks i send you, you’re my favourite person in the world !! 🤧💕

you clear your throat,   a rough sound,   thick with a sorrow you’ve no more energy to share.  this melancholy moment is fleeting,  an ache to be tucked away once they return inside.    ❛❛   um,  i should, uh    -----------    thank you for being here tonight.  ❜❜    you turn to offer her a small smile,  the first genuine one of the night,   before fixing his eyes back on the endless horizon.   ❛❛   you make these events somewhat pleasant.   i’m glad to have a friend.   ❜❜

❛❛    the guards will be along this wall soon,   we should leave.   ❜❜