been a while, dxb :)

proof of life !

hi tumblr!! been a while since i wrote some feelings here, la lang i jus wanna type these all out while i still have the time and energy to do so. haha so ayun.... who would freaking BELIEEEVEEE im officially in my lover girl era?!? i cant put my finger on it cos its true pala it really happens when you least expect it. we've met since grade school, went on separate ways, only to find each other again (cheesy af pero grade school crush ko sya) pero ayun, my heart's just really happy right now i cant evennnn explain. it's like, its something beautifully overwhelming-- like finally catching my breath after being underwater for so long. lamoyun yung feeling na u built your walls up so high for other people to climb but nag melt sakanya cos i suddenly felt so safe with him. i found myself daydreaming abt our future, and for once it doesnt scare me. it feels natural. never confused. also, me and riri left our dorm na cos she resigned :( she got burned out sa work and honestly, ako din naman its just that i have no choice but to continue pa muna cos wala pa kong safety net, or new job but im submitting applications naman sa ibang companies but wala pa kasi nagrreach out lol :( my plan kasi was if ever i quit the job here yung next na would be overseas. but ewan ko.... louie have plans of taking me to the US in 2 yrs para dun na kami mag continue ng life and its a good deal din naman since he's in the military, us2 q nalang maging housewife chariz but!!! for now im already living alone in my new apartment <3 mej malungkot sya pala nasanay kasi ako kasama ko si riri kumain if ever our shifts aligned ganun but im happy i get to have my own space :) work's been shit also the past few months, nag migrate kami into a new system so everyone is sooo kamote and before yung OT namin umaabot na ng 2 hrs, ngayon 4 hrs na HAHAHA cos inaabsorb pa ng lahat yung configuration and stuff. sobrang nakakapagod, that kind of tired na hindi na rewarding and just keeps sucking your soul up so ayun. my heart is happy but my mind and body are tired. jk

proof of life