all vibes no plot

fandoms: marauders/HP, the bear, ASOIAF & whatever else strikes my fancy this is an unserious place

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I read all your works upside down I think. I found inside dogs when you posted it on anonymous, then when I went to read it again I saw your name and clicked on your other works.. I read sheer blu and then brave face. Both amazing. Is brave face meant to be starcest? on regulus’ side, its hinted quite heavily. but maybe thats just.. them being them.

hi anon!! thank you!! I'm so glad you've been enjoying my fics!! I'll be so honest, when I saw this ask I was reminded with visceral full body chills remembering the few weeks where a bunch of anons lost their shit at me for saying, no, there's NO blackcest in brave face, but if you care to read regs chapters THROUGH THAT LENSE, you could make an argument that some of his behavior speaks to more complicated feelings than just obsession. I, as the author, want certain ambiguity in my writing, I want layers, I want things left to interpretation because I strongly believe in the death of the author and because I myself don't know everything about my Reg and Reg doesn't know everything about himself and he's a totally unreliable narrator anyhow. I want BF available to be ready through different lenses because real people are more complex than tropes, pairings, one-note emotions etc. I got burned at the sake and shot at for those posts (if ur still pressed u can honestly suck my ass. touch grass. get a job, unfollow, truly limitless options here).

I’ve scarcely felt that way regarding any work. The story itself is genius. The allegory for rape? Genius. The characterization? One of the most human depictions of characters I have ever had the privilege to read. And I read a lot! Themes of the utmost importance have been transmitted to me, new perspectives have been made possible. I am in shock. Absolute shock. I urge you to keep writing, because I am determined to read any work you publish. It is my duty, a form of thanks for the epiphany that took place soon after the last chapter you uploaded. I am compelled to talk and defend this story forever, to sit around waiting for another chapter, like a starving man waiting for sustenance, nothing else will satisfy him in the meantime! I love you. I love you. I love you. Thank you (siriusly.) xx

oh wow, thank you very much! i've read this through a few times now and am not sure what to say, really. i think i get a lot of imposter syndrome when i get messages like this because i find myself and my writing frustratingly limited and lacking. still, i have always made an effort to be transparent in my writing, and have used BF as a rather ugly outlet for all my ugly accoutrements: childhood stuff and anger stuff and family stuff and feeling explicitly, intrinsically outcast, and digesting social class politics as a child in a rigid system I didn't ask to be in, etc etc. i will never cease to be surprised and awed to hear that someone out there connects with BF because i wrote it as an angst dump, and posted it with a very "fuck it we ball nobody will notice this because the fandom is so crowded with hogwarts fics that im safe to post this bs" mentality.

thanks for tagging me @wannabelilybriscoe!!! my may has been kinda boring. my fav pic from this month is the ~skull sale~ sign. buy one get one free!!