Always Hyperfixating

why is there an upgrade button on gmail. why does twitter want me to scan my palm to get into my account. why is google a chatbot. why does the transit app make a transit app wrapped for me. why does youtube keep shoving its infinitely scrollable shortform content down my throat. why do my doctor and psychiatrist and therapist want to use an ai notetaker during our appointments. why do free trials want my credit card number. why are most scholarship websites just data brokers. how do i make capitalone stop sending me mail. why is my school making its own special chat gpt powered chatbot. why is every third video on instagram an undisclosed ad. why is nothing online real anymore. why is everything so FUCKING STUPID

"Whimsy" is truly a wretched term. What maketh thee so carefree?

thy mother

Art thou for fucking real

Official joy and whimsy post

washing dishes is evil because you go "oh fuck there's so many dishes this is gonna take foreverrr" and then you enter the dish abyss and emerge with your abdomen somehow covered in water and your hands all wrinky and then you look at the clock and what felt like half an hour was actually 10 minutes

i don't really want to weight in on the "using big words in your writing is ableist" discourse happening on tiktok because i'm like 90% certain it's an anti-intellectual psyop to stir up drama in online circles to promote the use of ai to summarize literally everything and thus feeding the LLMs and lowering the populace's mistrust of such tools but i also have to say: dictionaries and thesauruses are the most accessible they've ever been. if you use an e-reader of any kind you can look up a word without leaving the page. there's a plethora of online dictionaries and if you just type a word + "meaning" into google it'll usually give you a definition. we used to have pocket dictionaries we used when reading in class. i have two on my shelf right now that i used in high school. stop letting the fascists purposefully misuse anti-ableism rhetoric to trick you into never thinking again.

The only difference between me (someone who draws) and someone who wishes to draw is simply that I draw. There's no magical quality someone who draws or sculpts or sews or writes or composes or crochets or plays or codes or knits or sings or whatever has that people who aren't making art lack except willingness to make art. When I was younger (and to this day) I wanted to draw so bad. It gets under my skin. It bothers me deeply. Not having a pen in my hand. Not understanding how something was drawn. I was just so interested in it I could not contain myself. So all the frustration and discomfort and humiliation of learning something new and being bad at it was worth it to me and still is. I still make plenty of art that looks bad as I keep learning and trying things. I just tend not to post the things that look bad. If wanting to make art gets under your skin, I urge you to pick up the pen or the needles or the keyboard or the guitar or whatever art making tool of choice and make something. I promise there's nothing fundamental you lack. I promise there's no magic quality that makes someone an artist that you don't have. Of course there's nothing wrong with yearning. I'm just saying that the bridge between not being an artist and being an artist is just making art, not some secret artist ingredient that gets put in some people and not others. The one thing I hear constantly as an artist is "wow I wish I could do that". I hear it more than anything else. You can do it. The only "leg up" I have on you is just years of experience. Which you're never going to get if you never even get started. I used to look at other artists with such envy. I used to think they were just keeping secrets from me or were just more special than me, and that's why their art was better. But it was just learning and hard work I hadn't done yet between my skill and theirs. The more I draw and learn, the more I understand just making things was all I had to do to get where I wanted. And you can do that too!