Dustland Fairytale

I know, I know okay but think about it. Bellamy was ultimately convinced to join the cult because The Conductor was right; he is missing something in his life. He thinks he can justify all the hurt and the anger and the sorrow he feels because it’s been for the sake of his people, but in reality it hasn’t. It’s been for the sake of Clarke. With a few exceptions, all of his most defining regrets were for her. Mount Weather, letting Gina die, poisoning his sister, risking everyone’s lives to defeat Josephine, he did it all for her. That’s the truth he’s been running from: he loves selfishly, yes, but not in favor of his own desires. He loves selfishly because he puts Clarke above all else, over and over again, and he knows simple friendship can’t justify that kind of sacrifice.

It’s clear in the next episode Clarke is being tortured for her memories much like Octavia was, and I truly think that watching her memories, their memories unfold in search for answers about the flame is what’s going to snap Bellamy out of it. She’s going to make him realize that the emptiness he feels is born of his love for her, and the fear that she doesn’t return those feelings. Ideally, he’ll get to the radio calls in her memory and realize she does, and that will be the catalyst for their confession, but that may be too perfect even to dream :) Regardless, what really struck me during Bellamy and the conducter’s conversation about love was that Bellamy feels empty because he does not love the right way, and that’s so true. I think he believes Clarke loves him, to some degree, but he is in love with her and he’s terrified she doesn’t feel the same way. Until he realizes that she’s in love with him too, he’s going to feel empty, and no amount of greater good cult mentality propoganda will change that. Thus, the only thing that can truly break him out of this trance is finally reaching the answer he’s been searching for all these years: Clarke

if you support the victim and you’re wrong, at least you have shown that victims can share their story and be heard.

I know that everyone is so unbelievably shocked and upset about these allegations, take a deep breath, and leave the internet for a while, it’s not going anywhere, you can delete your apps without losing your content, it will still be here when you get back.

Listen to music, doodle, draw, write in a notebook, cross stitch, do something that doesn’t involve a screen for a bit, or find something new to watch, take you mind off things.

These are very serious things that are being said right now, and as a survivor of verbal/emotional abuse myself, hearing these things made me sick.

I will not defend Bob, nor will I attack him. When Amber Herd made accusations against Johnny Depp, I jumped the gun without hearing both sides of the story. Then to hear that she was lying and was the actual abuser, that made it so much worse.

My ex to this day still says awful things about me, still calls me a psycho, still tells everyone i keyed his car (I didn’t) that i threw his phone at him and smashed the screen (I didn’t, he dropped it while we were shopping) tells everyone I’m the biggest liar and I was the abusive one, so please everyone, take a moment before passing judgment. I’d like to hear another side of this.

Just remember, we do not have an objective or complete understanding. I know I don’t interact on here a lot, but my DMs are open to anyone who wants to talk, to vent, to anything.

Bellamy: Hey

Echo: I can’t sleep