Ziaco

Zico leaned in and shrugged quietly. It wasn’t neat of him acting like this was it? He missed Yukwon but it was the best not to speak too much about the past. Especially not now Zico changed in a positive way. 

[Text]:❝ You weren’t the cruel person, I was the cruel one. I hurt you in so many ways. You giving me a clear shot is too good to be true. I don’t deserve it in the slightest way. I knew for your birthday would be abit dead so I don’t know. I felt like I had to tell you to have a good day. Seeing you like this only points the finger to me. You where a good person, lovely and nice to me. I was the grudge and a psychopath. You don’t deserve me around. Compared of how good of a person you where, and now you forgot everything. I can’t help to feel guilty about it. You’re the one who’d have to hate on me. Not otherwise. I have no rights to hate on you, I’m only protecting you by pushing you away. ❞ 

[ text: ] I… can’t say I saw this coming but… it’s not your fault I thrown myself out of that cliff that day… it’s nothing but mine. I regretted that impulse, I don’t know how long it has been but it was my fault. I think there might be a chance to get my memories back, it’s all I ask. Don’t blame yourself, you didn’t push me off, I drove myself off instead. I’m not hurt and I’m sure that the previous me wouldn’t be hurt either now. Perhaps a little, but, I’m sure I would have forgiven you if I knew and acknowledged all what happened. Don’t blame yourself for my actions. It was my fault. It wasn’t sabotage, it was pure stupidity. I wish I wouldn’t have thought the way I did when I drove that car… but it can’t be changed. I got hurt but escaped and there’s a chance I can remember everything so my objective is to regain what I’ve lost and be able to remember everything, even if it doesn’t feel like my own. I just want to know what happened. 

As he was replying, he received another loud beep from his cellphone, making him press send with the slight scare he got from the unexpected text that he just received. He didn’t have time to react even, so he just read it. Even so, he felt a tear run down his cheek to humidify the fabric of the sheets he was lying above, to sniffle as he’d shakily respond, as he felt his heart heavy with guilt, making his tears pour down slowly through his face.

Yet the small beep washed away a part of his sorrows. Carefully he opened the text and read away. Again; not Zico’s fault? Then why did he feel so guilty in the first place? There was no way he’d be able to forgive himself this easy – never. His eyes, reading each word slowly. Once done he read the text again, to make sure he isn’t just in some bad dream.  Yukwon really just, jumped off a cliff? – Zico’s heart and eyes stung. This hurt even more than a dagger up his back. Especially when he knew what kind of cheerful and cute guy Yukwon was before this.  Staying in a moment of silence Zico thought about what he could reply. It seems like he was becoming short on words. – And there was text two. – Which only made Zico feel worse. A part of him did wish for Yukwon to do the same. Yet it might seem better he doesn’t remember him.

[Text] You should remember yourself first. You where a precious and sweet guy. Very cheerful and lovely. I could only look up to you back then; Why you might think? – I used to be a psychopath. I killed rapists and badguys; well not exactly me. I had this gang who did. When I met you I tried to quit it; yet having a short temper ruined it between is. I was being too much of an ass. Selfish and just pure evil. You truly where a pure guy. I’m sure, once you remember and realize who you where. You’d end up falling inlove with yourself. Because you where that good. I’m sure you still are. I will never be able to forgive myself for what I’ve done. Yet, if you really want my help. I’ll feel honored to try to help to get your memory back. I owe you soo much and I really need to help you right now I guess.Besides, never give me details of how you hurt yourself. You’re still precious to me.  I don’t need to know that really… Brr. *shivers*