Peaks & Valleys

He said… no one would miss me. Because I’m entirely unloved. […] What provoked it? Like, how did the argument start? You think I did something to deserve it. No, I’m obviously not saying that. Sometimes I think I must deserve it. Or else I don’t know why it would happen.

She closes her eyes. He probably won’t be back, she thinks. Or he will, differently. What they have now they can never have again. But for her the pain of loneliness will be nothing to the pain she used to feel, of being unworthy. He brought her goodness like a gift and now it belongs to her. Meanwhile his life opens out before him in all directions at once. They’ve done a lot of good for each other. Really, she thinks, really. People can really change one another. You should go, she says, I’ll always be here. You know that.

Sydney Shore Sunset

by Stuck in Customs