J u l i a

(voice of a person spiralling) its embarrassing but i still havent figured out if its ok for me to be alive

Remember when you could look things up online. Do you remember how we used to search

Wednesday the 15th. What an excellent day. Middle of the week, middle of the month. Truly, we are in the middle of things.

don’t look at me with those pretty eyes, i’m gonna forget how to speak

I love revoking people’s access to me like actually no you don’t deserve to know me anymore :-)

a lot of love and a lot of worry inside me

I think I am finally starting to understand what carl jung meant when he said “you cannot stay away from yourself forever. you have to return, have to come to that experiment, to know whether you really can love. that is the question - whether you can love yourself. and that will be the test.”

I looove having 0 children and sleeping alone in my quiet clean cool apartment and going to concerts and festivals and shopping for new cute clothes and watching TV

truly do not understand how people just slip into relationships and jobs and opportunities and friend groups and lifestyles. to me there are a million obstacles to navigate in a single basic conversation