chenle love blog

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mark pulls you in by the belt loop of your jeans. whether he wants to kiss you or simply have you closer to him, he'll hook his finger through the loop and pull; his hands immediately resting on your hips and a teasing smile on his face.

aries: “i have the choice of being constantly active and happy or introspectively passive and sad. or i can go mad by ricocheting in between.” 

taurus: “the floor seemed wonderfully solid. it was comforting to know i had fallen and could fall no farther.”  

gemini: “i want to live and feel all the shades, tones, and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. and i am horribly limited.”

cancer: “perhaps some day i’ll crawl back home, beaten and defeated. but not as long as i can make stories out of my heartbreak; beauty out of sorrow.”

leo: “i want to taste and glory in each day; to never be afraid to experience pain, to never shut myself up in a numb core of non-feeling, or to stop questioning and criticizing life and take the easy way out.”

virgo: “what horrfies me most is the idea of being useless: well-educated, brilliantly promising, and fading out into an indifferent middle age.” 

libra: “i felt my lungs inflate with the onrush of scenery - air, mountains, trees, people. i thought, ‘this is what it is to be happy.’” 

scorpio: “if the moon smiled, she would resemble you. you leave the same impression of something beautiful, but annihilating.”  

sagittarius: “i wanted change and excitement and to shoot off into all directions myself, like the colored arrows of a fourth of july rocket.”

capricorn: “i took a deep breath and listened to the old brag of my heart: i am, i am, i am.”

aquarius: “i shut my eyes and all the world drops dead. i lift my lids and all is born again.” 

synopsis you and chenle have been friends since you could begin to speak; every memory has him attached to it. when he asks you to teach him how to kiss before his first date with the girl of his dreams, although you’ve never kissed anyone before, you agree. after a kiss or two— feelings come to the forefront. genre gn!reader x chenle, childhood friends to lovers!au,  warnings very small angst (?), mentions of comparing oneself to someone else, making out, kissing chenle for the first time! chenle is a bit handsy when it comes to kissing; nothing too serious! word count 2.7k

chenle was utterly infatuated; not with you, but with someone else. you saw it in his eyes whenever he spoke about the girl that he had been talking to for the past three weeks. you saw it in the spring in his step whenever he walked through your door for saturday movie nights that you two had shared every weekend since you were fourteen, and through the way he canceled on you the previous saturday because he was taking her out on an extravagant date. he viewed her as entirely perfect and although you had never met her in person— you started to see her as perfect too.

fatima aamer bilal from, the heart beats for two.

1. i can do this! after outlining everything i need to do, it doesn’t seem so bad. in fact it’s very methodical and easy to follow and i can do it.

2. oh my god its happening. its the end for me. i might as well be dead. everything is due now. i was put on this earth to suffer. i have two essays due in 45 seconds and all ive eaten today is half a goldfish cracker. i can only feel pain