A lot of people in situations of dating/hooking up/etc what have you, have been so wishy washy about acknowledging a relationship is present and making the lines of defining what something is very murky AND THEN when I wanna address it and state that it exists I’ve been made to be this villain for doing just that.... like me expecting people to know clearly what they are doing and admitting to it and asking what something is so taboo. I’m really tired of being made to feel like I’m at fault for simply responding to the signs given to me, not just implied signs but clear, direct, vocal signs. Fuck this queer community that preaches revolution cause it’s all to save face for most people. Fuck people being made out to be this ableist idea of someone unable to be logical and mature just because of emotional expression . Fuck people just seeking others out like a meat market - if you engage with someone intimately in any degree, you have to be responsible and accountable for their safety and security and well being. Tired of being hurt by the same people who claim that I deserve love. I’m so over these immature ass children who treat me like shit. I honestly don’t know what it’s like to have a happy healthy definitive relationship with someone ... everyone always wants to stray from even acknowledging that it is something possible. I don’t know if it’s me or if it’s them or the world or reality or trauma I really don’t know who or what to trust sometimes. I’m not even asking people to be with me despite their own feelings, but people still deserve respect and care and truth. I don’t understand any of this bullshit and why it persists.
