it’s happening. i’m fearful.
so there is this girl. excuse me, woman who i am falling so hard for. my biggest fear initially was that this was going to come off as a rebound but it couldn’t be further from that.
i constantly think about her and my soul aches when we are apart. i think it’s bc she’s my soulmate. i feel as i have been in love before, or maybe even just comfortable of the thought of love but this time it’s so different — and feels right. i only want to be a better me so we can be a better us. i’ve said for the longest that i wanted to be whole before dating again and trying to be someone’s better half when all along… I just needed her. she completes me. spaces i thought were null and void have became some of the most vibrant spots in my life thanks to this beautiful individual. i literally am falling in love with this girl and it terrifies me. she assures that she won’t hurt me but i fear drifting apart. letting someone into my space again.. literally knocking down the wall i spent 3 years building up with each time we hug, kiss, make love, laugh, cuddle, just talking. the way i can just stare at her in total darkness but sensing the bright spot in between our entangled bodies. the love radiates enough to match the energy the two of us are releasing.
i’m honestly terrified of loving again, bc i know how hard i love. but for her.. i’d risk it.
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