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Woke up super exhausted and without any energy. Will I let it ruin my day? Stay tuned to find out

I love PCs and tech stuff but why is updating drivers and troubleshooting such torture

with the increase of temperature the number of insects and moths I encounter day to day also increases ugh

having things about you known is so scary

For the past 6 months maybe? I've been on a little test quest with most of the people I talk to where instead of using pronouns I'd just talk in third person. Sometimes jokingly or to exaggerate a statement but more often than not it was for normal things or just the way I said something and no one seemed to really care or call me out on it. It feels so amazing and freeing actually like. I am not she. I am also not him. Yui is Yui. (menacing music slowly starts to play in the background)

Yesterday the ticket sale for Miku Expo Europe started and it made me think back to the time I went two years ago. It was such a shitty time for me and not being able to enjoy that concert at all ended up being the catalyst for so much better things for me following up... woa... Even back then I knew going to the concert was a toxic goal of mine because everything to the ticket sale up to the actual journey and being there was such an awful and unfun experience. I really wanted to go to make it up for, I don't know? 10 year old me that had that dream inside her? Past expos I was promised I'd be able to go but couldn't? Those things instead of making me happy about being able to actually go just turned into bounding shackles that forced me to feel something that has massively changed since I started liking it. The concert objectively wasn't awful, and I had some fun moments, I mean any scenario in which I can use lightsticks in public will be a win for me, but the setlist and the (very obvious) atmosphere of people that like it for different reasons turned it a little sour. I didn't even attempt to go for the merch stand wars either which was a first. When the ticket sale announcements came around this time I thought about buying tickets again, but I just... Didn't bother. In fact I even forget they were yesterday if I wouldn't have seen it on twitter. There's still tickets too and funnily VIP tickets that don't seem to include VIP goodies like every year(?) At least it's not saying anything but it's mentioning different perks. It's not that I don't want to go, or that I really want to go, but depending on how I feel later this year and on the setlist(!) I might, maybe... Get a ticket and try again. Without any of the things that ruined it for me back then. Maybe.

I've really tried tumblrs Communities feature for over a year now since I liked the idea of it, but I think it's in such a weird spot that it's either predominantly overshadowing every other post on your tabs or it's so non-existent and ignorable that you forget it even existed

I don't wanna go get my wisdom teeth removed tomorrow... And with little sleep... meh

To have something else to focus on than adult things irl I started a new sidequest to replace my current daily backpack... I found a really really cute one that I decided on last night but going over the stuff now I realized it doesn't have bottle+umbrella compartments and if I'm really willing to sacrifice visuals over utility and I wanted to talk about it to a friend to just. You know get my thoughts out, have some conversation instead of just talking to myself. After an unfunny Innuendo about the size he said "the bag doesn't suit me" and it wouldn't look good on anyone who isn't a specific stereotype in his head. It shot right through my excitement before I even got to say any of the concerns to which he just doubled down....,, Fazit yeah I'm not ordering that specific backpack it was super silly I could've even thought for a single moment it'd be someting for me..

mm good morning… *good* morning. I've woken up early, yoinked some things in the washing machine and got back in bed to play some Heaven burns red… _(:3 」∠)_ Ish so cozy.. Don’t wanna start the day…. DON'T WANNA HAVE TO GO OUT AAH

I’ve been working on folding and putting away the laundry pile that’s been on my bed for the past couple months FINALLY