Подарок от Бога @yuichiroswife - Tumblr Blog

WARNING: This blog will have tons of triggering content so proceed at your own discretion!

Hello and welcome to my blog! My name is Speka and this is my lovely little blog for the character Mikaela Shindō, or primarily know as Mikaela Hyakuya aka Mika, from the franchise Owari no Seraph/Seraph of the End!

Please be aware that I DO NOT affiliate with the Owari no Seraph/Seraph of the End fandom (anymore) and DO NOT portray Mikaela as he should be from said series! Instead, I have created my own version of Mikaela that is 100% mainly affiliated with @s-talking along with a select few I have as very close friends. This version of Mikaela is strictly my own creation and therefore is very different from the original source material. That being said, the vibe that I am going for with Mikaela is now more horror based, so if you have a problem with that, I suggest you leave now. Additionally, the only Owari no Seraph characters that will be affiliated with my version of Mikaela are the one’s that I also muse, therefore he will behave as if he does not know your muse — this excludes @noctalaethra, @pyropalle, and @anomieheld.

Rules || Muse || Credits ||

Note: Mun has extremely severe insomnia and thus often has spotty activity and response time. Often times she does not sleep for more than a few hours at a time, generally being unable to properly fall asleep and is always in a state of being half awake when actually sleeping (additionally is a naturally light sleeper). She has so much trouble sleeping to the point she can talk to people on the other side of the world (where it is now morning) and still not be able to sleep afterwards. Mun is always in a permanent state of exhaustion despite seeming upbeat. Please be patient.

Note: Mun is a whole ass adult who is likely much older than most of my mutuals, so please be sure to respect that and treat me as such. I will not tolerate being treated like a fucking toddler anymore.

#{ Finally got my pinned post up. }#{ Only took me an eternity. }#{ But there we have it folks. }#{ Feel free to like the post to show me you've read it. }#{ You can even comment on it too if you'd like. }#{ Just don't reblog it please. }

•18+ Adults Only

Watch Anya Live on Cam

Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.

✓ Live Streaming✓ Interactive Chat✓ Private Shows✓ HD Quality✓ Free Actions

Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming

{ Nothing like watching old 70s, 80s, and 90s horror movies to make you feel nostalgic for the way you grew up. Even if I didn't grow up in the 70s or 80s, I experienced a lot of it's influences very heavily because of my parents, thus why I'm always obsessed with shows or games or whatever in that era. }

#{ Part of me wishes I grew up in those times. }#{ My parents say those were the best years of their lives. }#{ They had the most fun and everything was actually genuine unlike today's society #{ But alas... I am a 90s baby. }#{ So I immerse myself in anything I can to get that feeling. }#{ Not to mention that it always gets me in the mood to work on stuff. }#{ *points at my alien Magical Girl/Magical Boy OCs* }#{ They're prime inspiration is from the 70s and 80s. }#{ I'll try to work on some icons maybe? Perhaps for Philis? }#{ I wanna see if I can give her another face claim if possible. }#✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

bowlifecomics

It makes me happy when they listen

cheap-pink-mints

bowlifecomics

YES. YES YES YES THANK YOU

#{ Me when people let me talk about things I enjoy to them. }#{ Envyness being the prime example. }#{ He doesn't know half the shit I talk about yet he still always happily asks and listens. }#{ I also love to listen to people talk about the things they love. }#{ Like when Shi was telling me about Zeno. }

{ I miss my friend Dante and his Spanish Medieval Knight!Yuu and my Female Mafia!Mika. I miss the shipping we had together for the two of them because they had the most crazy antics, but loved each other so deeply. }

#{ Honestly... Dante's SMK!Yuu reminded me a lot of Wami's knight OC. }#{ They were very similar in personality. }#{ The only difference is that SMK!Yuu would sometimes say stuff in Spanish. }#{ And I had a hell of a time figuring out what he said for FM!Mika to respond properly. }#{ But it always translated into the sweetest stuff ever. }#{ He was such a mushy man for Mika. }#{ I miss those times. }#{ Maybe I should bring back FM!Mika? }#{ Just because I can and I miss her. }#✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

{ You know your Mother's Day is peak when you get told by "Happy Mother's Day" by a friend who basically views you as their mother AND you get an angsty thread reply from Wami. So I get soft feels and gut wrenching suffering, the best of both worlds. }

#{ Happy Mother's Day everyone. }#{ I am going to spend it with some of my family. }#{ And then later Imma try to reply to things. }#{ Especially since I have to work on more icons as well. }#{ So hopefully I can get stuff done like I want to. }#{ I also gotta tell my friend (the one who sees me as her mom) Happy Mother's Day as well. }#{ Cause I discovered she has a two year old! I'm a grandma. }#✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

•18+ Adults Only

Watch Anya Live on Cam

Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.

✓ Live Streaming✓ Interactive Chat✓ Private Shows✓ HD Quality✓ Free Actions

Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming

{ Apparently according to a Twitter post my little sister saw containing an email from the official MiHoYo Zenless Zone Zero team, Shiyuan and Shunguang are no longer horses. They're foxes now.

It makes more sense than being horses anyway due to how they look, but I promise it's likely because of all the backlash they got about them supposedly being horses despite looking like foxes. Not to mention they apparently got flack from the horse girl game's community due to them knowing what horses actually are supposed to look like? Go horses enthusiasts? Yay??? }

#{ I figured they wouldn't stay as horses. }#{ Pretty sure they only made them horses to fit into the “year of the horse” situation. }#{ But claiming they're a rare breed of horse thiren when they didn't know how to design them like one was strange to me. }#{ Not that it matters since I've always called them foxes to begin with. }#✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

{ Have not read anything OnS based since Shinoa got possessed, but my friend Cynthia totally fucking called Yoichi being actually crazy a little while before we officially saw Gekkoin appear. }

#ons spoilers #{ Dunno if I need to tag that or not? }#{ But there it is. }#{ I've always liked the idea of Yoichi being unstable actually. }#{ Because the whole being too passively sweet during an apocalypse is kinda... ridiculous. }#{ Like... he's cute and all but please stop being so sweet and box bitches more. }#{ I didn't really read the chapter or anything. }#{ Just saw spoilers. }#✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

a-mel0n

reblog if you’ve had an online friendship that’s lasted more than 2 years

#{ Most of my friendships are from when I was sixteen on here. }#{ Vira is the longest friendship online though. }#{ While my IRL best friend Diamond is the actual longest. }#{ Met her in 8th grade. }

phaethoned

{ I know I don't post here much to begin with due to still setting things up and the like, but I want to apologize to everyone that I actively talk to here on this blog or on Discord for being so absent the last few days. I've been having nonstop panic attacks over not being able to renew my family's SNAP benefits due to some new developments and it's had me so drained that I've either just been trying to sleep off the anxiety or play something to distract myself from it so I don't overstimulate myself back into the hospital again like before. }

#{ In case anyone has been wondering where I've been or what I'm doing. }#{ Life just keeps saying fuck you to me. }#{ So please expect me to be a little less talkative. }

☆☆☆☆ put this star into the inbox of your favorite blogs - it's time to spread positivity! ☆☆☆☆

{ Aaaah, thank you so much for the message! You're always so sweet to me, Stephie. 💕 Expect to get one of these back! }

#{ I'm still mobile bound. }#{ So asks will still be answered like this until further notice. }#{ But thank you so much for sending this in! }#{ You guys are always so sweet. }#{ I hope y'all know how much I love you. }#✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

•18+ Adults Only

Watch Anya Live on Cam

Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.

✓ Live Streaming✓ Interactive Chat✓ Private Shows✓ HD Quality✓ Free Actions

Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming

☆☆☆☆ put this star into the inbox of your favorite blogs - it's time to spread positivity! ☆☆☆☆

{ I'm currently mobile bound at the moment due to being in the shower, so you get soppy Speka responding to this, but thank you so much for this!!! It's been a while since I received something like this so having it suddenly in my askbox makes me very happy. 💕 Expect to get one back from me! }

#{ I will tag this properly once I'm back on my laptop. }#{ And once I switch accounts back. }#{ But for now this is the best that I can do. }#{ I do not have tags on mobile. }#{ Minus the few that are suggested but none are the ones I need. }#{ But thank you once again for sending this in! }#{ Especially during a time where a lot of shit has been going wrong nonstop. }#✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

{ Guess who's still not getting their copy of Resident Evil 9: Requiem? Me~. That's fucking right. Now they're fucking claiming I have to wait until April for my copy WHEN I WAS ONE OF THE FIRST PEOPLE WHO PLACED AN ORDER.

But guess what? There's mooore! Not only will I not get my fucking steelbook copy, they're trying to force their piece of shit Amazon Deluxe Edition on me! Which, apparently, IS ABSOLUTE TRASH BECAUSE EVERYONE SAYS IT COMES COMPLETELY BROKEN WHEN DELIVERED IN REVIEWS.

Fucking LOVE how this shit ALWAYS happens to me. Every single fucking time I pre-order a game! So guess I'm not getting the game regardless because this isn't what I fucking paid for!

Yes, maybe I'm being petty and overreacting, but I don't fucking care! I'm so overwhelmed by everything lately that all I wanted was my game, but I guess life says "fuck you" about that too (doesn't help I'm cramping real badly)! I'm so fucking worked up that I'm in literal tears and feel like having a god damn breakdown again. I'm not a confrontational person in the slightest due to my emotional disposition, but I am literally about to call Amazon and just go off on every single motherfucker who works there because HOW THE FUCK CAN YOU REPEATEDLY BE SO INCOMPETENT? Tell me how?! Everyone needs to be fucking fired and replaced with people who know what they're doing. I swear to god. }

#{ I'm so fucking overwhelmed that I'm pulling my own hair out and clawing my chest again. }#{ I feeling like I'm literally about to snap. I'm not kidding. }#{ It's been one thing after another this year. }#{ And I'm to the point I just can't take it anymore. }#{ I dunno if I can do 28 years of this by the time birthday comes in August? }#{ I already had a breakdown with my sister in her room saying how I didn't wanna do this anymore. }#{ More and more things push me further and further. }#{ Be them small or large. I just can't handle this nonstop shit anymore. }#{ My parents just should have never had me because all my disabilities and mental/emotional issues make living feel impossible. }#{ I am just... in an awful place and this was the tipping point. }#tw; negative #✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡#✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

{ Am I annoyed by the fact that, instead of giving Asaba a rerun, they give a fucking rerun to Lucia and Yidhari even though we JUST HAD THEM? Of course I am. The whole point of the reruns are for characters that haven't appeared in a while, not characters we literally just had. }

#{ Guess I still won't be pulling any time soon until Cissia comes out? }#{ Cause I definitely want her just because snake lady. }#{ I also am still hoping for Ye Shiyuan and Severian to be released someday. }#{ I know it will never happen because the male agents always sadly get locked behind NPC status. }#{ Yet we get a million horribly designed female characters that are basically naked or wearing a previous girls' outfit. }#{ It's ridiculous honestly. }#{ I miss when they used to actively try to make nice designs. }#{ Edit: Yidhari and Seed not Lucia. }#{ Edit: My mistake. }#✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡#✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

{ This is nothing important, and it's not about anyone specifically, but lately I've noticed that a lot of people (mutuals included) have been stating that they only write with female muses meanwhile years ago it was male muses.

And this is NOT meant to pressure anyone or make anyone feel guilty, it's just more or less me speaking, so please do not take it in a negative way because I would never force anyone to do anything they don't want to do. I am an advive believer in people having the right to curate their experiences, especially if they've had bad past experiences.

But seeing things like that sometimes makes me wonder if I should drop most of my male muses and pick up more female muses. Maybe then I could have an easier time interacting with people? Yet, at the same time, despite being a woman myself... I always feel like I never bring justice to female characters. Perhaps that's strange or it doesn't make any sense? But truthfully, as a woman, I don't really understand half of the things I should living as a woman and I think that's probably made me feel somewhat... distant with personally writing (not writing with) female muses. I dunno. It's a strange feeling that's always been present in the pit of my stomach since my early days of roleplay, hence why I usually take male muses. Maybe it could be due to the fact I was raised more like a boy than a girl during my childhood, despite my mother trying to live through me and smothering me with colors like pink and white in attempt to manage me, since my older brother never wanted to do the things our father did so me and my younger sister were basically like my father's "sons" according to my uncles — that's neither here nor there though and not the point of this post.

I can't say whether or not this post will stay up or not for long due to me always feeling guilty for feeling a certain way about certain things, but I'll try to get over this feeling and see if I can start properly muses for my female muses that I do have — be them canons or OCs — because I'd rather be able to write with the people I love and have fun with them than just sit here wondering if I should just leave them be because I don't have their muse preferences. Besides, most of my friends are compassionate and generous so I'm sure I'm worried over nothing, but if they are uncomfortable... I'll approach with female muses. }

#{ There's no real need to read this post. }#{ It's just me talking. }#{ Sorting out feelings and such. }#{ It's not really all that important. }#{ Again... this is not about anyone specifically. }#{ I am speaking about things that I've slowly noticed over the course of a few years. }#{ I'll try to start working a bit more on my female muses. }#{ That way I don't step on peoples toes or make them uncomfortable. }#{ I know I have a few muses I can use. }#✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

{ Woke up from cramps just to see a loser ass anon hating on Serin for being creative.

Someone call the Tumblr police because some Karen lost their toddler in the creativity isle and they're throwing a fit. In other news though, everyone remember to kiss your local Serin and treat her with the love she deserves. }

#{ I may be cramping and in serious pain but I will still say something while I suffer. }#{ Go fuck yourself anon. }#{ Nobody is catering to you and your pathetic antics. }#{ It's hilarious that people thinking saying shit like that to people hurts their feelings. }#{ Honey... you must be new here. We're all grown and too busy with life to deal with your foul ass. }#{ Take your own advice and get off the internet. }#{ Touch some grass and go take whatever medication you so clearly need. }#{ Back to bed now. }#✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

•18+ Adults Only

Watch Anya Live on Cam

Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.

✓ Live Streaming✓ Interactive Chat✓ Private Shows✓ HD Quality✓ Free Actions

Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming

{ Whoever said I can't get the S rank with all nine (9) handicaps in Battlefront Purge: Difficulty V can kiss my ass. Now onto the last difficulty with twelve (12) handicaps. }

#{ I don't accept failure in this house. }#{ To think I'm doing all this for the polychrome for when Asaba gets his rerun. }#{ Asaba my beloved. }#{ And fuck anyone who says Seth can't carry. }#{ He's always my main unit. I don't care if he's only an A rank. }#{ He's my little guy and I love him. }#{ Now if only I could get Ye Shiyuan. *sobs* }#✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

{ If my preorder copy of Resident Evil Requiem gets canceled or ends up as the stupid fucking Amazon Exclusive Edition instead of the god damn Deluxe Edition, I'm gonna fucking kill someone. I want my steelbook, not a stupid ass poster. }

#{ It already says my order got shoved to fucking March so I get to see everyone else spoil it for me. }#{ So if I get the stupid fucking Amazon Exclusive Edition... I'm getting a refund. }#{ Cause I bought it for the steelbook. Not a fucking poster that's gonna easily get torn because of my sister's dog. }#{ I specifically made sure to be one of the first people to order it as soon as it was posted. }#{ Just so I could avoid something like this. }#{ I'm about to crash the fuck out man. }#{ And some of you may think I'm being dramatic... and to that I say fuck you. }#{ I am an unmedicated bipolar who has a chemical imbalance in my brain so I feel shit ten times more than normal. }#{ And shit has been going wrong for two weeks straight. }#{ Not to mention Leia barks at every fucking sound she hears and scares me awake. }#{ It's every fucking five seconds. }#{ I'm gonna jump off a damn bridge. }#tw; negative #✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡#✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

Trending Blogs

Last Seen Blogs

Подарок от Бога